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Chapter 10

"You're late Gem"

My Collins said as I entered the classroom late

"Sorry, I had something to deal with"

I took my seat at the front of the room

"Ok class, today I will be handing back our chapter 4 tests. I believe the class average was 68%"

I sighed. Great, I'm failing out of school.

"Come on people we can do better then this! Just because you don't care about science doesn't mean you can't fake it! "

The whole class laughed. If there was one thing I could say about mr Collins was that he was funny.

He picked up a big stack of papers and begun handing them out

With every cry and groan that cane out of each students mouth when they received their test, I became more worried.

Then he stopped in front of my desk.

"How's your face?"

I smiled. My lips was still swollen and the side of my face was still bruised but it was better then before.

"Good thanks"

He handed me my paper

"Gem I would like to talk with you after class, stay behind ok?"

I nodded.

Oh gosh, I probably failed.

I slowly turned over my paper

100%

I sighed out of relief. But at the same time I didn't know why mr C wanted to see me, if I wasn't failing, what did he want?

The bell rang and the class emptied out

I packed up my bag but remained seated

Mr Collins took a seat at his desk and looked at me, smiling.

It made me notice that we shared the same eye colour. But what disappointed me was that Mr Collins didn't look cold at all. It was just me that always looked like that. Jeez, he couldn't be more then 30, I thought. He didn't have one wrinkle.

"I was very impressed with your test score Gem. I want to set up a meeting with you and your parents to discuss possible opportunities for your future"

I looked down at my ripped converse

"We'll my moms dead and my dad wants nothing to do with me so..."

I knew I shouldn't of said that and I was in no position to say that stuff to my teacher but I couldn't help myself sometimes.

I could hear Mr C clear his throat and I was immediately flushed with guilt.

"Sorry" I said quickly.

He shook his head and looked into his hands

"No, no it's my fault. I'm sorry I should be more careful with my wording. Do you have any guardians I could speak with?"

I quickly shook my head No.

" none at all? No foster parents? An ain't or uncle?"

I shook my head. I had never met my moms family and I knew there was no way I was going to be able to bring in my foster parents.

"Ok, we'll then I guess I could talk to your counselor"

I nodded

"Can I go now?"

He nodded and quietly said

"Yea, you can go"

I quickly got up and left the classroom.

I felt stupid for saying that stuff to Mr Collins and all I really wanted to do was go home and sleep