I need something. I'm not quite sure what it is but it's like everything's missing and gone. Everything feels wrong and empty and unrealistic and I'm trapped and life isn't good. Everything is bad and mean and empty. I don't want to do this and I don't know if I can do this. I feel so blue-black-grey and a bit purple. Not quite the taste of metal but almost the taste of honey and I don't think it's a good thing. I hear the lowest A on my piano and I just feel so so black-blue-grey. It disgusts me. It's so hard to keep contact with people but especially when they don't make an effort. I'm constantly tired and no amount of sleep is going to fix that. No amount of therapy or medication is going to fix that. I just need something. An outlet or a person maybe. I need something and I know what I need. I don't know. I feel almost teal-black. It's almost gross. I'm so fragile and I need the right thing and I need a certain amount of attention. I feel so cold and I just want you to be with me. I just want you to be around me all the time and I want you to give me constant attention and I want you to not like people better than me. Obviously, I won't tell you any of this and I'll be stuck with my words forever. Please let me tell you everything. Please tell me everything about yourself and all the things you love and the things that make you happy and tell me about your day. I want to know you so bad. I know a lot about you already but it's not enough.
