Clarity || z.m

Outing

HATE ME ALL YOU WANT I'M SO SORRY I HAVEN'T UPDATED. SCHOOL IS KICKING MY ASS SO BAD I WANT TO CRY.

I've already had to drop a class [wah] but i'd rather do that than fail.

So, I'm sorry for the wait, and I hope you guys enjoy.

I love you.

Best comment gets a dedication in the next chappie <3

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"Zayn!" I said with a demanding tone. None of this was making sense. How did he know my mom? "You can't just say that and not give me an explanation!"

I couldn't believe how close to tears I was in. The shakiness in my voice was becoming quite evident, and I had to blink multiple times to make sure nothing spilled out.

"Like I said, I will give you every explanation you want, but right now... Please baby, let's just find your brother before he finds out more than he should." He reached out his hand to grab mine but stopped once he felt the way I hesitated to grab his.

Was it good that he knew who she was or the worst thing ever? How would he even know who she was?

A thought occured, something that could totally make sense. "Can I ask you something? But you must be completely honest with me."

"You know you can ask me anything."

"Did you know who I was before you met me?" I almost whispered.

Zayn glanced over at me quickly, the car moving slowly to the side and the blinker clicked, indicating he was about to pull over.

"Now why would you think that, honestly?" He unbuckled his seat belt, facing me completely.

"It's just all a bit weird to me now. Like... why me? I had secrets so do you. When you're in this position, so many thoughts just come to your head."

"Nani," he cupped my cheeks. "I know how weird it looks to you, but I promise that I didn't come looking for you. I didn't want us to happen as much as you didn't want it to, either. But it did. And baby, I swear it was the best thing that happened. I know we still have so much to learn about each other and how we're going to make this work, but we'll find away. I have you now and I'm going to do everything in my power to keep you."

There was something about the genuineness in his tone that made me just want to fall in his arms and pretend like this never happened. I knew it was okay to believe what he was telling me, but with everything that was going on in just one day I didn't know what to do.

His thumb stroked over my cheek caringly. Even the pad of his thumb was just as flawless as him. With such a small gesture, I wanted everything to be better. But sadly, I knew things didn't work that way ever. With him though, I felt like it could. With Zayn around, to me, anything was possible. And maybe, when all of this was over, things could go right for once.

But again, reality hit. That could never happen. Not with Zayn. We were the definition of fire & gasoline. He can live forever. I on the other hand, cannot. The slightest smile I had on my face dropped when the realization hit and I couldn't hide it.

I was never one to picture what my life would be like when I finally had my family. The thought was always scary because of what I had gone through sadly. But when he came into the picture, I thought about it. But it ended up being a stupid fantasy. He's... Not human. I kind of am. At least more human than he could ever be. The one person I could even consider to picture spending the rest of my life with can't do that. And there was literally not a thing we could do about it. The most we could do was face reality and let time pass just as how we were doing previously.