Tiva short stories

Sadness and cuts

Can't think of a good title

Ziva's POV

Tony's back with Jeanne and I have to admit I am jealous. The anniversary of Somalia is coming up and I don't know if Tony remembers. It's been hard for me, I really love Tony but Saleem was right who can ever love me, I'm so fat, I'm ugly, I'm a slut, I'm worthless I deserve to die. I decide to take the day off work. I ring Gibbs and say "Hi Gibbs.... yea I don't think I'm going to come in today... personal reasons.... yes will do... thank you Gibbs."

Gibbs POV

I wonder why Ziva isn't coming in today, she knows she can talk to me about anything. I'll go check on her at lunch.

Ziva POV

I just sat there sobbing in my bathroom, I have cut my thighs. I can't handle the pain anymore I wrote a note for Tony telling him how I feel. I cut my wrist with my knife, 1, 2, 3, 4 times the cut was deep. I started bleeding out, I was thinking about Tony and all the good times. Then all I saw was black.

Tony's POV

I wonder where Ziva is, she is never had a day off. I'm worried about her it's coming up the anniversary of Saleem and what he did. I feel bad because I'm only with Jeanne because Ziva could never love me and I need to try and move on but I can't, yea Jeanne is pretty but Ziva, she is beautiful her smile makes me smile, her giggle, she's a kick ass ninja, she so strong she is such a lovely person. I need to go find her. "Boss, where's Ziva?" I ask, " She said she needed day off because of personal reasons, why do you ask Tony? Are you worried about her?" He says. "Yea boss I am worried it's coming up the anniversary of when Saleem and his men took her and umm violated her." I said quietly so McGee didn't hear. "Oh that's why she sounded so upset on the phone, Tony go find her make sure she's okay" Gibbs said to me worryingly. I didn't need to be told twice.

*At Ziva's Apartment*

I knocked on Ziva's door, no answer that's weird. I rung her phone and it went straight to voicemail, i pulled my gun out of the holster, I kicked down the  door and went around Ziva's apartment and that's when I saw her...

I started crying, I ran to Ziva her pulse was weak I called Gibbs to get Ducky and said that Ziva was in bad shape. I didn't know what to do, I held her, I held Ziva in my arms. I saw a note on the bed it red "Tony<3" I reached for it and slipped it in my pocket, Gibbs and Ducky arrived. Everything after that was a blur.

*in the hospital*

They gave Ziva medicine and stitched up her wrist. I sat by her the whole time, I went out of the room for a bit. I unfolded the note and tears ran down my eyes, she did this because of me why didn't I tell her how I feel? I rung Jeanne and said "I'm sorry Jeanne, I'm in love with someone else"  "it is okay Tony who ever she is, she is lucky, goodbye Tony." Jeanne replied. "Goodbye Jeanne, I hope you find someone" I said and I hung up. I should be there for Ziva how it's coming up a year from Somalia. I know that killed her from the inside out. Just then a nurse came out from Ziva's room and said "everything is fine, she is awake only one person can see her at the moment please let the rest of her family know that"  "Thank you will do." I said.

I walked into her room and she just stared at me. "I'm so sorry Ziva I should have been there for you especially after Somalia I hope you can forgive me I love you Ziva" I said to her with tears running down my face. "Tony, I don't know what to say, I really love you to but you have Jeanne I don't blame you, she's beautiful and skinny, I'm ugly and fat." Ziva said. I couldn't believe the words coming out of Ziva. "Ziva, you are skinny and beautiful you are such a lovely person, please I said with tears in my eyes don't try and kill yourself again" I pleaded. "I won't" Ziva said promisingly. I brought up my courage, leant over and her the kiss what magical to say the least.  "I love you so much Ziva" I say. "I love you too Tony."

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