Ginger Love Palace (Cashby)

Chapter Five- "Complications"

*Alan POV* | Feb 21, 2014 

I find myself at Austin's house, packing up my shit. If he's going to be like this, I'd rather live in my own loneliness than his.... his whateverness. Yeah, that's it.

"Alan....?" I hear Austin say. Fuck! Why'd he have to come here before I left? I know it's not entirely his fault, he doesn't even know I'm here, but still. It would've been nice if he didn't come back here so soon.

I grab my suitcase, which I gladly just finished packing, and Sophie and head out of my room, which is the guest room once again. I hear footsteps behind me.

"Alan, you don't have to go...." he whispers. I shake my head.

"I'm sorry, but I.. I just, I can't. I'm sorry, Austin.." I say. I don't understand why I'm apologising because really it should be Austin, but if it makes it any easier to leave, I'm all for it.

"Alan, please don't go. You don't have to leave, I will if you want me to. Please, you can't be alone. At least stay with Phil, Aaron, Shay or Tino! Please, take care of yourself... Don't leave me..." he says, beginning to cry.

"I'm sorry... but I need some time for myself," I say, and with that I walk out the door and walk home. My car's there anyways.

I unlock the front door and see my father. Shit, why's he here?!

"Hello, son," he says.

"Uh, hi. Dad," I reply.

"I have some bad news for you, unfortunately," he tells me, looking down at the wooden floors.

"What happened...?" I ask cautiously.

"Mom... your mother, she... She's not with us anymore, son," he answers.

"What do you fucking mean she's 'not here anymore'?" I hiss. I'm getting sick of your shit, dad! Fucking say it!"

"She died, you son of a bitch! How the hell am I supposed to say it for you to be happy? She had that stupid disease that Austin's mom has got. Now, if you'll excuse me, you're on your fucking own now," Dad says, slapping me across the face.

"I'm... alone?" I stutter out. Dad nods.

"Never let me see you again, faggot," he spits, and strolls out the front door.

<<TRIGGER TRIGGER>>

My knees begin to get weak, and I fumble my way to the kitchen. I don't even try to bother hiding my tears. I'm in my own house for fucks sake, let me do what the hell I want! I open my fridge and grab a bottle of vodka. I chug it all, even though it burns the living hell out of my mouth. I fall to the floor, hitting my head on the fridge's door on the way. I throw the bottle away, and grab another, and begin to chug that bottle.

"Dialling 'Austin'," my phone chirps. Fucking Siri! Damn ass dialling.

"Alan, you okay?" Austin says frantically. I shake my head even though he can't see me. I drop the bottle of vodka and everything starts to become blurry and fuzzy.

"Alan, I'm coming over!" he yells and hangs up. Why, Siri, why?

I pull out my pack of beers and smash them on myself.

"Come on, beer, kill me!" I slur. I know beer can kill people in general, and so can glass. Why isn't it working?

I grab my last bottle of vodka, and smash it on the floor next to my laying self.

"Oh my god....." I hear Austin whisper, and I blackout.

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Two chapters in one day is good. Five chapters in three days is beast. Enjoy them because there's school tomorrow, meaning rare updates til Friday. Sorry for the triggers ;-; ill make a recap chapter? Yeah that sounds good. ^^ okay yeah um yeah.