After lunch Tyler excused himself to the empty room. He lied in fetus position on top of the recently ironed blankets. They were warm and inviting and he just wanted to lie there and think forever. But it was hard to actually think when the voices we're pounding in his head.
Your mom will get aids, herpes, what else? Its all your fault. You could've stopped her. Occupied her or something! But you didn't you worthless piece of shit.
"Please shut up!" Tyler screamed. He heard thumping going up the stairs. "Ty? Who are you talking to?" Josh called. "Uhm..no one!"
"Can I come in?" Josh called from outside the door.
"Yeah."
"What's wrong?"
"What do you mean?"
"Ty, y-you're crying. What's wrong."
"He's back."
"Who?"
Tyler sighed and sat up, he patted the bed gesturing for josh to sit down. "I-i have this voice, blurry face. He tells me all these bad things. Like that I'm worthless and stuff. And he hasn't talked to me in a whole year. One whole year. But he's back, and I don't know what to do about it." He did his worse habit, and wound and unwound his fingers out of nervousness. "Ty...I don't know how to help you. But, I want you to know that you aren't worthless. Whatever blurry face is telling you, its wrong." He looked sad, and desperate to let Tyler know it would be okay. "Thank you, Josh"
"No problem."
Tyler looked down at his thumbs twiddling with his other fingers. He wanted to ask josh on a date but like he thought before it was too early to rush these things. Although looking up at the boy in front of him made it impossibly hard to resist.
"You wanna watch shutter island again. Its so messed up I just have too!" Josh looked up shyly his eyes filled with hope. Tyler nodded with a smile filling his face.
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In the middle of the movie Tyler got confused. He sighed. He's seen this movie one million times and he still can't catch up with what was happening. It was a great movie nonetheless, but the more you watch it, the more you figure things out. He'd have to watch it 9 trillion times before knowing everything.
Josh looked over after hearing Tyler sigh. He looked frustrated and as if he was almost...bored?
"We can do something else if you want." Josh interrupted the movie. "No its fine. The movie is just a little hard to follow." Tyler's squeezed his eyes shut, he was a little restless. Josh brought his hand down on Tyler's, and his eyes softened.
"Josh, i-i know we've only known each other face to face for a couple days but I uhm... was wondering if you wanted to go on a-a d-date?"
"I would love to Mr. Joseph."
They smiled.
A/n ayee back at it again with dem short chapters! (I'm so sorry I brought back a dead meme...) Cri.
Am I making things go to fast? Idk I'm not a good writer...
I'm so bored. Okay comment your name.
Mine is Anias with a long I. Everyone pronounces it wrong lol.
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Fanfiction"if love is where you want to spend the rest of your life with someone, to wake up and find them by your side, and to only wish they were there with you forever, then what is hate?"
