Okay, so you know I have anxiety, right?
Well, I hate it. Everyone does. But there's one specific thing that I hate after having an anxiety attack
The words "You look happy now"
These words make me die inside, not only can it (and in most cases will) trigger more anxiety, but it's hard to explain.
When someone has an anxiety attack, they most likely think they are dying (or think they will die)
In my case, I feel like I'm dying and I cry and I cry, and when I try to stop it I end up having a massive headache (one of the symptoms of anxiety) and I feel sick, and in most cases my legs feel like jello.
I would go more into depth about it, but that's not what I'm here for.
So the words "You look happy now" not only triggers more anxiety (I get the thought that people think I'm a fake, and I fake just about everything) it triggers my depression.
And it's just a loop, my depression causes more anxiety, and my anxiety creates more depression. And the cycle continues.
And yes, I am happy after I have anxiety attack, because it's over. I no longer have to go through that hell. I no longer have to completely aware of my actions and how they effect how people see me, I no longer have a headache (or it's fine down a bit), and I don't feel like I'm dying anymore
I asked my parents to come get me from school because of an anxiety attack. I do t even want to go to school tomorrow because I feel like people will question why I left.
Of course I'm not afraid about telling my friends, they are all completely and fully aware I have anxiety. One of my friends were luckily not at, or they'd be nagging at me about leaving.
