Star crossed | Chanbaek - Baekyeol |

Failed soloist

* 4 years later *
•Seoul, South Korea
Confusion, boredom, and loneliness -- this was what Park Chanyeol woke up to every morning. His days were ever so simple, going exactly the way he would think up in his head. He was so tired of it.
However, there had been days were he would awake, only to find his eyes drenched in tears. He would blame the tears on nightmares, however not once did he actually remember having a night mare before his eyes were spilling their tears.
And although Chanyeol had tried his best to forget Baekhyun, he couldn't help but blame his lost nightmares on him. He would feel nothing during his systematic days but as soon as he hit the bed and rested his cheek on his pillow, memories would rush into his head and remind him of what could have once been his. It had gotten to the point where Chanyeol had had enough of his sleepless nights over Baekhyun, however the nightmares started soon after that. Almost as if they didn't want him to forget.
Chanyeol had convinced himself that his feelings for Baekhyun were gone. If he thought about Baekhyun, his heart wouldn't start racing anymore, however it did cause somewhat of an anger impulse. If Chanyeol thought about his ex-lover, he would have pissy day. However, for some reason Chanyeol enjoyed the nightmares. Because all though he despised baekhyun for what he did, deep down in the bottom corner of his heart, he could feel the striking effect Baekhyun had on him. The nightmares were the only way to re-visit him, and it felt incredibly real for him, even if it only felt that way in the few moments where he couldn't decipher if he was dreaming or not.
Chanyeol laid in bed, wondering when someone would come to love him. He had completely given up on Baekhyun. He knew very well he wasn't coming back, and his feelings were a mere result of not being able to move on. If Chanyeol could get a genuine partner, his thoughts about his ex-lover will disappear. Hopefully, in due time, that person will show up.
    But it's been four years! And Baekhyun only served to introduce him to a pleasure so toxic and so addictive that can only be reached through certain circumstances. Hell, Chanyeol had tried everything to recreate those pleasures. He slept with women, and felt nothing. He tried sleeping with men, maybe they would be a little more close to home. And yet nothing. He even tried sleeping with someone who looked like Baekhyun, and the guy even let him moan the name Baekhyun. However, at the end of the day, all he received was a satisfaction that lasted a mere hours, sometimes for about two days. Then, his hunger would begin again.
    See, Chanyeol was convinced that the pleasure he received from Baekhyun wasn't something easily achieved. Baekhyun helped Chanyeol realize how much of a fucking sex crave he had. It wasn't until he had slept with multiple people that he realized it. He had received the best kind of sex right off the start, so of course everything else that followed after wouldn't even compare to it. None of the sex he had could compete with that of making love. He knew that the reason he could fuck Baekhyun all day was because he had been so in love with him.
      Chanyeol was driving to work while thinking about all of this. And the way he could remember the amazing feeling of having the person he once loved the most beg for him to cum inside was what drove him mad. 4 years in the future and he could feel his mental state go insane from the deprivation. That feeling, was what drives him to look for a partner. Someone to love, and to only love him. I mean, how was it so hard? He was currently one of Korea's top rappers and songwriter. He was so young, successful, talented, and rich.
     He pulled up to the agency and parked in the garage. As he walked to the elevator in the garage, he remembered that he was being introduced to the duet partner he would be debuting with soon.
    Chanyeol debuted about 6 months after he signed his contract with the company. That's about 2 months after Baekhyun left. Chanyeol was initially set to debut in a group. However, after much discussion and begging, the director saw potential in Chanyeols solo career. He debuted as a rapper immediately, since he had no real need to dance, and was instantly a hit. Everyone loved him: he was a fresh new face with an amazing talent of rapping and song writing. As his talent grew and his concepts began to find its true form, people started to applaud Chanyeol. In a little over a year, people were amazed by Chanyeol work, and music critics were giving him outstanding remarks. Chanyeol had also gave into a few plastic surgerys, but nothing too big. He got double eyelids and fixed his teeth. He caught the eyes of fan girls, and before he knew it his fan base consisted largely of teenage girls. However, he had caught the ears of many hip hop lovers, as the recognized his talent. They applauded him for finally bringing talent into the mainstream and being different. In about three years into his success, he had won multiple awards, and was a very recognized face is Korea and around the world. A global Hallyu star: C.Y Park.
    He was about to go on a worldwide tour, however he had to wait about a month since he had to debut with his duet. His duet partner was going to go on tour with him as well, to perform they're new release.
    Chanyeol had written the whole album for them. He wrote the whole god damn album while constantly thinking about the love he longed for. Very cheesy, but he figured if it was a duet, why not write something romantic or a change?
    He wrote the song for someone who had a high voice and for a rapper. So he assumed the agency had gotten a female singer. However as he walked into the studio, he noticed the hair and dressing style of a boy. A pretty boy at that.
    He was told the duet was meant to help relationships with the smaller branch companies that extended from the once he's currently at. He knew his company had branch companies that were in desperate need of help, for multiple reasons: Debt, failed artist careers, etc. They knew that a song featuring the well known C.Y park would take them out of debt and being them a good profit. Especially for the bastard that was his partner. He was about to get famous soon.
     However, as he walked into the studio, a creeping feeling arose up his spine. And at that moment he knew his exact dread. He knew those two people, but in his mind he hoped it really wasn't who he thought it was. Then he sat down without looking at either of them, hearing the drop of glass onto the floor. How could this be?
      His heart raced so fast, he could not believe that after so many years, after the intense thoughts he had played in his head on the drive here, that the boy who had abandoned him was sitting in front of him with a surprised and absolutely shocked expression. The man next to him, grinning with a smirk, as if he had known all along.
    " Chanyeol?" Cried out Baekhyun, with a grief in his voice. Chanyeol could puke from the horrid thought of Baekhyun faking his grief. It made him angry, that he could come back and act all sad after what he had done to him.
    " Do you know each other?" Asked Chanyeols director. Chanyeol chuckled a little.
   " Somewhat, but not really" replied Chanyeol. A women had entered and began to sweep up the broken pieces of shards from the glass. Baekhyun looked down, completely baffled from the situation.
     " Well, Chanyeol, this is your duet partner. He will be debuting with you to help our relationships with the branch companies. "
     " So this is the failed soloist?" Chanyeol asked, looking Baekhyun up and down.
  "Now now Chanyeol, he hasn't exactly failed yet " began his director, clasping his hands together.
     " But he hasn't had a successful career has he?" Said Chanyeol expressionless with an eyebrow raised. Baekhyuns intense stare was on him the whole time. Chanyeol averted his eyes else where. He knew exactly what this boy was doing to him. He knew that even though the thought of Baekhyun didn't speed up his pulse, all that turned to fucking shit the moment Baekhyun showed up in front of him. It's obvious his body didn't forget what Baekhyuns presence did to him.
     " Chanyeol, do you mind letting Baekhyun live at your home for the time being ?" Asked the director, reclining back into his chair. Both Chanyeol and Jongin turned to look at him surprised at the sudden remark.
    "Live?" Asked Chanyeol. He would be damned if he let that little shit live in his home. That's like asking the devil to come into his life and have at it. Chanyeol could barely stand the thought of being in the same room, singing the same songs with him.
    " Baekhyun has certain circumstances and our dorms are currently filled with most of the branch companies trainees and idols. Most of their careers are not successful enough for them to buy or rent an apartment. It was only a suggestion since it would help you two bond a lot better."
    Like hell it'd help him them get along. Chanyeol knew only bad things could happen with both of them in the same house, day and night. And as much as he hated it, Chanyeol couldn't deny that he wanted it so badly. He wanted to live under the same roof as Baekhyun, reconcile with him, embrace him, and give him everything he desired. Baekhyun still meant the world to him, he came to realize in the few minutes he had rejoined with him.
     But it was his god damn fault! It was all Baekhyun fault they couldn't be together, they could have been fucking married by now, everything would have been so much better and Chanyeol wouldn't have had to live with this repulsive depression of loneliness he was thrown into 4 years ago. And it irked him so much that he couldn't tell all of that to Baekhyun right now in his pretty little face.
   " No" said Chanyeol as he grabbed his things together and got up to leave. " I don't want him living with me. Just send me the recording schedule so I know when to show up here when it's absolutely necessary" and with that Chanyeol walked out the room.
    Chanyeol eyes bulged wide as he was finally outside of the room, quick pacing himself as fast as he could down the hall way. He ran his hands through his hair, completely baffled. He pushed his way into a bathroom and splash his face with water. He rubbed his face multiple times, looked into the mirror, and grabbing at his hair intensely almost insanely.
     " AGHHH" he growled and yelled into the air. He wanted to punch the wall so goddamn hard, but he knew very well that his knuckles were require for his talent. Chanyeol could feel the tears building up into his eyes, until a body entered the bathroom.
    In walked the cause of his mental breakdown, the reason he was about to have a seizure. The boy was practically bathing in pheromones, it's almost as he deliberately was using magic to tame Chanyeol. Chanyeol felt the horrors of being Baekhyun little toy, and god did he know that he had Chanyeol wrapped right around his finger.
   " Chanyeol" whispered Baekhyun as he took a step forward. Chanyeol took a step back, grasping onto the edge of the sink. He raise his finger toward Baekhyun.
    " Don't you dare take another step" demanded Chanyeol. Baekhyuns eyes swelled up with tears, and sparkled with the lowly dimmed lights.
    " I'm so sorry" Baekhyun began, letting the tears spill down his cheeks. Baekhyun slowly lowered himself on his knees, only looking down.
    " I know what I have done deserves of death. But, please allow me to live at your home!" Begged Baekhyun, completing bowing to the floor in front of him. Chanyeol covered his mouth, almost reaching forward to forcibly raise him up, but thought twice at the last second.
      " Please Chanyeol! Don't let me go back with Jongin" whispered Baekhyun. Chanyeol eyes darted towards Baekhyun. He got into the floor and and raised Baekhyuns body to face his with his arms grasping his shoulders.
   " What do you mean? Is he doing something to you?" Demanded Chanyeol. Baekhyuns keep quiet with the tears streaming down his cheek, looking down. Chanyeol smacked his lips and cursed. He grabbed Baekhyun and pulled him along with him. He dragged him to his car and opened the passenger door, putting on the seat belt for him and the closing the door. He got into the drivers seat and drove off.
     " Baekhyun what's going on?" Demanded Chanyeol, running his free hand through his hair.
     " Oh, so now you care" retorted Baekhyun.
   " Don't fucking bullshit me Baekhyun, what the fuck is that bastard doing to you?" Chanyeol threw back at Baekhyun, causing him to whimper.
      "Don't worry about it" Baekhyun replied, with a hiccup. He scooted away from Chanyeol and towards the door.
     " I'll let you stay at my house. But please," began Chanyeol, after looking at Baekhyuns devastated state," don't come near me in my home. I'd rather it be as if you weren't even there"
     Baekhyun looked back at Chanyeol, confused with his eyes red.
     " Why?" Asked Baekhyun innocently. Chanyeol looked back towards the road, averting his eyes away from Baekhyuns.
    " You know exactly why. You drive me insane, and you know that better than anyone"
Said Chanyeol, biting his lips. Chanyeol cursed inside of his head. God fucking damn it, he would be damned if the situation was actually arousing him, that would really be the cherry on top of all of this. He couldn't believe that the thought of them living together again would be pleasuring, but all he knew was that the mere presence of Baekhyun was enough for him to get off on. It would literally be a sin to let such a force enter his home.
    And yet here he was, putting the passcode into his home and allowing the guy who knew how to pleasure him correctly into his home. And they weren't even going to fuck. They were going to live together. Ha! What a joke!
    Chanyeol knew very well this wasn't a game, he knew exactly what had agreed to, and he knew he was oh so going to regret it.
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