Star crossed | Chanbaek - Baekyeol |

Chanyeol, you asshole

Baekhyuns eyes began to flutter open the moment Chanyeols low groans became audible. His sweet, deep voice, was producing grunts as he slid himself along two escorts by his side, limping toward the door. Baekhyun got up, and as he took in the sight he quickly became aware of the situation. Chanyeol was drunk and was bring home two girls at his side.
Baekhyuns, pressing his eyebrow together, looked at Chanyeol whose head was buried into one of the girls necks.
" Chanyeol?" He asked trying to see if he was even conscious. He received no reply, only a blatant ignore and Chanyeol proceeding to type in his passcode. Baekhyun diligently watched as he typed it in, making annoy to remember the passcode. 1-1-1-3. Baekhyun would not be locked out again.
As Chanyeol entered the apartment, Baekhyun couldn't help but feel jealous. Very jealous, to be exact. He didn't know why these girls were clinging on Chanyeol so much, and his anxiety only picked up when they crashed on the couch, and did not part. He watched as Chanyeol embraced the female, tenderly, and had the audacity to claim her. On the very couch Baekhyun had stood up very fast from due to Chanyeols remark. Then it dawned on Baekhyun. 'Are they going to do that?' He thought, and the idea stung tears in his eyes. After what had happened in the morning, Chanyeols bitch ass was going to fuck a girl in front of him? Baekhyun stared in horror as he watched Chanyeol, feel on the girl and bury his face in her neck, and Baekhyun had enough. He whipped around and ran from the disgusting sight. Baekhyun, he just thought, that maybe Chanyeol wouldn't simply fuck anyone as long as he could get off with Baekhyun. He thought that was why he had done that in the morning, but did Chanyeol simply fuck anything that walked ?
The horrible reality began to settle in, and suddenly he was being punished by the painful end of betrayal. Chanyeol had never cared for him; and Baekhyun was simply a fling for him. With his eyes clouded, coming up with conclusions, he shook his head. A few tears spilled out of his eyes, but his mind was racing with thoughts trying to process what he was even feeling.
Didn't Chanyeol worry about him? Was he not begging for Baekhyun to tell him the truth? For what? So that he can throw the blame on Baekhyun, so he can feel easy at heart that it was all Baekhyuns fault their relationship failed? Did he want to hear that because of his disgusting contract with Jongin that consisted of regretful sex, he was dragged to America, leaving Chanyeol behind ??? Is that what he wanted to hear? Did he want to hear how much Baekhyun despised himself, how much of an object he felt, how fucking low he felt? Did he want to hear that to console his god damn guilt ? Did he loath him that much?
Baekhyuns eyes were red with anger and grief, he was mad at himself for even being mad at Chanyeol. One minute he was promising himself he would be with Chanyeol for ever no matter the situation, and now he wanted to hate him! He was in no position to hate Chanyeol, after the terrible shit he had left Chanyeol to suffer through. But why couldn't he be selfish for a minute and blame someone else?
Baekhyun quickly dialed Hyerins number, to which she answered extremely worried. She noticed the pain and tear filled cries for help from Baekhyun and rushed over to pick up Baekhyun. He grabbed the only small bag of belongings he owned and rushed his way to the apartment door, where he passed the living room. His eyes were blurry with tears, but he could see the movement of bodies on the couch. This only spiked pain into Baekhyun and he hurried out the apartment. Baekhyun couldn't resist being in the same apartment as Chanyeol with that atrocity happening there.
Hyerin picked up Baekhyun and drove him away from Chanyeols apartment, were he burst out in complete tears in the passenger seat. His eyes began to pour, and he began to cry his heart out because he couldn't control it. Hyerin, of course, noticed and pulled the car over near a park. Baekhyun was sobbing in pain, his hand clenching his other hand above his heart.
Baekhyun felt the pain of loving Chanyeol. He wanted so badly to convince himself that Chanyeol still cared about him, that he wanted something with him. But how, if he could easily fuck him in the morning and act like nothing happened and fuck another at night. Baekhyun absolutely hated it. Baekhyun hated how miserable he felt, why oh why did the gods curse him with the ability to feel. He had had enough with it, he was so tired of feeling at all. He wanted to numb it all, it hurt too much to continue to bottle it up.
    " Baekhyun," Hyerin cried out, tears coming to her own eyes," why are you crying ?"
     Baekhyun turned to see Hyerin with tears of her own, looking back at him with a look he knew very well. One of hurt, one he was used to seeing in his own reflection.
     Baekhyuns mouth gapped open trying to say something but a choked sobbed only came out as his sobbing took over his vocabulary. He pulled up his knees to his chest and continued to spill his tears into his jeans. Hyerin put an arm on Baekhyuns shoulder, and began to pat him.
   " What's wrong Baekhyun" she continued to cry out. Hyerin did not like seeing Baekhyun so miserable. He looked absolutely broken and she didn't understand why. What could cause Baekhyun so much pain that he would sob so profusely. Almost as quick as she had started sobbing, it hit her.
    " Did Chanyeol do this to you?" She asked, cracking her voice a little as tears began to spill onto her cheeks. Baekhyun raised his head at the mention of Chanyeol, his eyes tilting slightly downwards from her comment. She realized he began to cry even more at her comment and she followed afterward.
     " Why are you crying?" Asked Baekhyun in cut up phrases in between his sobs. Hyerin smiled a little.
      "Watching you cry is making me cry" she replied hugging Baekhyun, trying to console him. Baekhyun buried his face into her shoulder and the tears spilling from his eyes soaked into her pretty lace blouse. He would have felt bad had not his feelings been damaged by Chanyeols silent betrayal.
      " What the hell did Chanyeol do to make you like this" Hyerin whispered with a clogged nose, wiping her eyes and patting Baekhyuns back. Baekhyun, refusing to answer, simply continued to spill his tears.
     After a while, Hyerin decided to drive Baekhyun to her apartment where she would let him stay the night. Whatever Chanyeol had done, it obviously had Baekhyun running out the front door and bursting into tears, which wasn't a good sign. Something tells Hyerin that he doesn't want to go back there.
     Baekhyun finally felt somewhat numb, he couldn't think anything at all and simply sat through the drive silent and staring off into the distance. His eyes were puffy and adorned with a new shade of magenta that surrounded his irritated eyes and puffy nose. He felt like drinking, passing out, or drinking pills; Anything to stop him from feeling. 
     Hyerin basically dragged him inside to her apartment, where her brother caught them at the door and helped carry him inside. Hyerin thanked her brother after they placed Baekhyun carefully on the couch. Baekhyuns eyes were clouded, he was in a different room completely, he wouldn't even respond to Hyerins calls.
     Somehow, Baekhyun snapped out of his trance and finally realized he was in a foreign room, and Hyerin was in front of him. He shook his head, trying to use the situation to distract himself from Chanyeol.
    "I'm sorry Hyerin.... I totally spaced out" he replied dizzily.
     " It's alright, really, I don't know what your going through but it must be hard enough on you as is" she replied sitting down on the couch directly in front of Baekhyun. A male voice, however, scoffed at Baekhyun.
     "You were spaced out for a few minutes. What could have been so bad that you delayed so much?" The male voice asked, and with Baekhyuns quick glance at the person, he realized the voice he marked as familiar belonged to his duos manager. Baekhyuns mouth gapped open.
    Kyungsoo looked confused, and Baekhyun looked back and forth towards Hyerin and Kyungsoo.
  "How do you guys know each other ?" He asked.
Hyerin look back at Kyungsoo and laughed.
"He's my brother" she replied, to which Kyungsoo retorted "Half brother".
   Hyerin rolled her eyes and continued,
"Yeah, he's my Half-brother" she mocked, turning her attention back to Baekhyun, "But that's not the problem here. The problem here is finding out what the hell Chanyeol did to you to put you in this state"
Baekhyun wasn't surprised, he knew the question would eventually be brought up again. He would have wished to keep silent; however Baekhyun knew all too well that because he did that religiously with his feelings, he was now an emotional wreck that would explode at any trigger. He landed himself in this situation because he never vented, because he never told anyone anything, bottling up all his feelings. Chanyeol could have probably been back in his arms again had he told him he didn't like him sleeping with wenches he found on the street; however because he couldn't fucking speak, here he was. His depressing, constantly declining social life had put him in a situation where he did not want to speak at all anymore, in fear he would worry anyone listening. He hated feeling like burden, and it was all due to his damn insecurity. The worse part about it, was that Baekhyun knew very well how bad his insecurity was, and yet he chose to not do anything about it. Because, at the end of the day, he would just be lying to himself if he tried to change the way he looked at himself. In all honestly, Baekhyun knew he was a piece of shit. It didn't matter if the whole world told him otherwise. Except, there was a time where the insecurities shut up, and that was a time spent with the one person who he cherished with his being.
     "Chanyeol fucked me, then proceeded to fuck another person in front of me not even a day later" Baekhyun spat out, causing Kyungsoo to spit his coffee out into the sink so he could talk, and Hyerin almost choked on her saliva.
     "He did what to you?" Retorted Hyerin, followed by Kyungsoo, who speed walked to the couch and sat down.
    " You two fucked? Chanyeol and you?" He questioned with eyes roaming Baekhyuns. He nodded back and hid his eyes from the two.
   "I.. At first I thought he was sexually deprived or something so I let him, but then he was doing that with another girl. I honestly thought-" Baekhyun stopped as he began to choke up tears again, remembering the reason why his angsty heart was so emotionally shredded.
    "I thought maybe he wanted me. I thought maybe he had had enough, and I couldn't refuse him because I wanted him more than anything" Baekhyun finally told, tears spilling onto his flushed cheeks.
     "Time out" began Hyerin, her eyes wondering everywhere, trying to come up with an explanation, " What is your relationship with Chanyeol? The Chanyeol I know is a boy who can't keep a partner because he's so obsessed with his job. Please explain to me Baekhyun, I- I generally don't understand." Hyerin stood up running her hands through her hair, looking back and forth towards Kyungsoo who was staring at Baekhyun pondering.
     Baekhyun wiped his eyes and began.
" Chanyeol and I... I don't even know what we are.  Back in high school, I had a dilema with my guardian, so I started living with Chanyeol. What Chanyeol didn't know was that I had a crush on him for a while" he said almost chuckling from the nostalgic memories.
   " Somehow, he shared the same feelings because he kissed me out of nowhere, and after that Chanyeol acted so sweet to me. Chanyeols sex drive, however, is crazy"  Baekhyun continued as he buried his face in his arms.
   "This is so weird of me to say but it's the truth, he never knew how to keep it in his pants when I was with him. But he at least only slept with me. He never cheated on me despite the fact we weren't even a thing. But I did something awful to him"
   Hyerin and Kyungsoo were both paying attention to Baekhyuns every word. They wanted to make sure they listened very well. Hyerin almost didn't want to believe it, she imagined Chanyeol was an innocent guy who was passionate about his art. This all sounded so new to her.
     "I was blackmailed into leaving him. If it had been up to me, I would have given up trying to become an idol as long as it meant I would live with Chanyeol forever. I wanted to, I wanted to stay with Chanyeol and grow old with him. But there was so many things against us" Baekhyun finished with fresh tears spilling onto his cheeks.
"How am I supposed to live with him watching him have at it with other people. I thought I would be fine watching him love someone else, since I had done something so bad to him. But I've become so greedy. I want him for myself, I thought that letting him do that would bring him back to me. I wanted him so badly I didn't refuse" Baekhyun sobbed, clenching onto each of his arms. Hyerin began to sob as well and went over to hug Baekhyun. She rocked him and almost choked up sobs.
"Why would you torture yourself like that. Why were you living with him?" She said through muffled tears. She continued to embrace Baekhyun, who decided to embrace her back yet again.
"I had nowhere to go. It was the only place I could go to that I knew would get me away from Jongin. But then I realized it was almost no different between the two" he replied while wiping his tears and moving Hyerins hair aside.
"Jongin? What'd he do?" Asked Kyungsoo, now more than interested into Baekhyuns sob story. Baekhyun flinched in the memory.
"Jongin...." he began, pulling himself away from Hyerins grip to explain, " I signed a contract with him when I was young. I was naive, my parents had just died so I was more than ready to fulfill my mother's dream for me to become an idol. Jongin was my only hope. He promised me he would turn me into a star, no other company would accept me."
He looked down, his depressing grief resurfacing from the old days when Jongin would claim him as his. He could very well see the surprise in Kyungsoos eyes.
"Jongin is not a bad person. We signed a contract and he became my manager, although he wasn't really aware of what the contract stated. His dad, ha his dad did me really dirty. He had fun using me for sexual favors. Jongin never knew this, but I despised him secretly for it. If I had never signed that contract he had convinced me too, I wouldn't have felt so worthless and degraded."
Baekhyun looked up to see Hyerin overwhelmingly crying and he saw a tear slip out of kyungsoos eyelids. From the looks of it, it didn't seem like they were surprised at all, more like they were understanding baekhyuns pain. The sad reality was that they knew exactly what happened in the industry, and they felt bad that Baekhyun had fallen victim to it.
"Jongin was my only chance for any kind of relief," Baekhyun continued, "I knew if I gained Jongins love, his father might have stopped putting me up as a compromise for any business he had. So I let Jongin sleep with me, even though eventually I realized there was no hope for him to love me. I always knew he never wanted to manage an idol. I knew very well his dream to become a dancer. His father liked to shove that fact down my throat. Almost as if he knew that would keep me at his company, he tried to shame me for making Jongin my manager so I would be grateful. And it worked"
Kyungsoo looked at Baekhyun with remorseful eyes.
" Jongin wanted to be a dancer? I would have never guessed. But Baekhyun, if he gave up becoming a dancer for your dream, doesn't that say something about Jongin?" Asked Kyungsoo, looking deeply into Baekhyuns eyes.
"He isn't the bad guy. He doesn't know half the things I just told you guys. He knows his father is an asshole though, his father wouldn't let him become a dancer even if I hadn't come along. It's just, Jongin was a part of the whole scheme. He didn't care about me much at all when I was with him, hell I even lived with him, and his affection toward me was very small. Once I ran away, hoping to escape that god damned contract, he found me again and blackmailed me. I had moved on by then, I just wanted to stay with Chanyeol but my past was haunting me." Baekhyun finished with a horror look in his eyes. Hyerin had had enough with the angst. She pulled Baekhyun up in his feet and began to move him.
" That enough for today!" She began, wiping her tears.
"It's been a wild day and Baekhyun has had his fair share of grief. You need to rest for now. It hasn't been long since you last were sick" she continued as she lead Baekhyun to her second bedroom. She helped Baekhyun into bed, where he thanked Hyerin, and Hyerin made sure to turn off the lights and dismiss herself. She made her way back to Kyungsoo, who was staring at the ground pondering in deep thought. She sat down in front of him.
" This kind of thing isn't uncommon, you know that" Hyerin brought up, snapping Kyungsoo from his trance. He looked up, his expression the same.
" I know all too well. That story sounds like the ones of our dad always tells us about. He warned me pretty well when I told him I would become an idol manager. Almost as if he were scared I would do something like that." Kyungsoo commented, laughing at his last comment. He knew very well he couldn't do something that terrible. He became a manager simply to help his good friend Chanyeol since he saw great potential. His dad even encouraged him, especially after he had been the one to give Chanyeol his idol contract. Yes, his and Hyerins biological father was the CEO of KIE ent, the same one Hyerin, Chanyeol, and Kyungsoo were contracted under. A rather big company, who couldn't afford scandals such as the one Baekhyuns company was facing. His father had actually suggested stopping that branch company at one point, but resorted to simply staying on the safe side, because he knew very well their connections to gangs. It came to him as a surprise, however, that Jongin was the son of that branch company. He knew a decent amount about Jongin, but he didn't know that. To think he might have actually found him attractive at one point. Kyungsoo shook his head. Hyerin still had a worried look on her face.
     "I feel so terrible for Baekhyun" she commented, wiping off the last of her tears.
    "In this situation, I feel bad for everyone" Kyungsoo began with his opinion, "Chanyeol could also be suffering as well, not to mention Jongin is probably wondering what he did wrong. Baekhyuns story is so confusing"
    Hyerin perked up ,
"How exactly is it confusing? He's hurt because Chanyeol doesn't love him back anymore and Jongin hurt him."
   Kyungsoo stood up and hit his sister head a tad bit too rough.
   "You're so dense.... and I thought you were Chanyeols best friend, you obviously don't know him very well" he rolled his eyes. Hyerin looked confused, which caused Kyungsoo to sigh.
     "Chanyeol wouldn't bang someone in front of Baekhyun for revenge. Chanyeol is 100% a teenager suffering from angst. I've seen how he looks at Baekhyun. It wasn't surprising that something was going on between them. However, I want to hear Chanyeols side of the story" he finished, moving himself towards the door.
    "Wait are you going to ask him now ?" Hyerin yelled, closing her mouth quickly realizing Baekhyun could be sleeping. However, Kyungsoo ignored her and shut the door in front of her. Hyerin was left alone in her living room. She sighed and looked towards the room that provided Baekhyun shelter. She prayed that Baekhyun fate would be a much easier one. He was suffering far too much.

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I find it so hard to believe there are actually reading my piece of shit story. I'm sorry I hardly update 😔 next chapter, Chanyeol and Baekhyun will have a discussion, so if you've been looking forward to that stay tuned ~ D