Star crossed | Chanbaek - Baekyeol |

Underlying grudge

        Chanyeol adored the scent of flowers. Flowers were the only thing Baekhyun had left behind when he left him, which were the ones from the project. Chanyeol watered those flowers every god damn day at the park, even in the spring and summer when they did not bloom. Chanyeol eventually expanded the garden Baekhyun had left him, adding every flower he could think off, growing everything and boosting his herbal knowledge.
     He grew an immense liking to the flowers, and how he loved to indulge in their scent. However when Baekhyun returned, he found out that he liked to bathe himself in floral scents. Chanyeol felt disrespected, he felt as if Baekhyun has done so solely for the purpose of torturing Chanyeol. If that were the case, it was working, and it was exactly the reason he had taken Baekhyun for the first time in years at impulse. He was just that irresistible.
        Chanyeol, however, was not indulging in the sweet floral scent of Baekhyuns skin, unlike how his clouded judgement had thought last night. Instead the strong and tacky fruity lotion scent burned in his nose, which caused him to bolt awake and realize his surroundings; they were nothing to be proud about.
Chanyeols eyes immediately shut again, reacting to the lights that had been left on. Thank god he installed low dim lights, if not his eyes would have possibly popped out of their sockets from the intensity. The current lights weren't as bad and his eyes were quick to adjust. He sighed as he realized the person on top of him snoring was in fact not Baekhyun, but a girl that took a minute to recognize.
He pushed the female off of him and placed her down on the other side of the couch. As he did so, she began to wake up, and Chanyeol mentally groaned. What the fuck had happened last night?
Chanyeol felt the pulsing feeling in his head. God did he hate drinking but the sweet numbing effect was addictive. He had forgot about Baekhyun for almost a complete night, but the price of forgetting for a few hours was sometimes a bitch. Today, it was horrendously terrible.
Chanyeol face palmed as he realized he had to perform tonight yet again, and he probably looked like complete shit. Memories were rushing in from last night and the girl next to him started to wake up. He scowled at her, regretting what he had done last night.
" Why did you guys come with me?" Asked Chanyeol to the girl, which he remembered was named Ashley.
      The girl rubbed her eyes and put her hand in his shoulder. Chanyeol pushed her hand away.
    "You wanted us to confort you, remember?" She reminded Chanyeol as she stood up to put on her shoes. Her friend on the couch beside them was also stirring and beginning to wake up.
    "No, no, no, we were supposed to do everything at the club! If I had wanted you guys at my house I wouldn't have even bothered to go to the club, I did it so Baekhyun wouldn't see-" he finishes almost abruptly when he remembers about Baekhyun.
     "Shit!" He thinks and he paces to Baekhyuns room. He couldn't have seen right ? He was asleep and he probably didn't hear them. He prayed to god that baekhyun hadn't come out of his room and seen the sight in the living room. But as he opened to door to Baekhyuns room, he stared at an empty room with none of Baekhyuns luggage around.
     Chanyeol began barging into every room in his entire apartment looking for Baekhyun. He checked the bathroom, the kitchen, the two spare rooms, his own room, his Rec room, yet he was no were to be found.
    As the realization of what had happened sunk in he punch the wall near him and cried out in pain after the shock hit him back, shaking his hand profusely to take away the pain.
     " Baekhyun..." he cried with a slight plea. He ran his non injured hand through his hair as he heard a door bell which turned his attention for the pain. Could that be Baekhyun, Chanyeol thought. With his hopeful attitude he ran towards the door and opened it to find his manager standing in front of him, who looked quite ticked off. Kyungsoo took a peak inside and looked back at Chanyeol with a face that knew everything. 'Oh shit' thought Chanyeol. What had he done? Had the tabloids caught a picture of him coming home with the girls? Chanyeol gave a nervous smile to Kyungsoo and it didn't seem to help at all.
   Kyungsoo stepped into his house and looked around.
     "So this is what caused Baekhyun to cry. Nice going ass hole" Kyungsoo harshly told to Chanyeol, who looked worried as ever.
    " Did Baekhyun go to you?" He asked Kyungsoo, who gave him a side glance that didn't look approving. Kyungsoo sighed.
   "Look I'm not one to get involved with your personal life that much but since both you and Baekhyun are under me I have to care why your causing him pain"
    "Baekhyun?" Asked the girl named Ashley as she helped her friend put on her shoes, " Is that who you keep moaning on about last night?"
     Both Chanyeol and Kyungsoo whipped their heads around to the Ashley and both girls stood up and walked over.
   "What do you mean? What did I do last night?" Retorted Chanyeol.
The girl scoffed, "Not much. We didn't actually sleep together just for the record. All you did was feel me up but the whole time you were crying out for 'Baekhyun'" she ended with a finger quotation mark gesture.
"We didn't have sex? That was the only reason I even went to the club" Chanyeol scoffed while earning him a series of painful hits from Kyungsoo.
"No, how the hell were we supposed to do anything if you get ugly drunk after only one glass of liquor?" Replied Ashley, walking towards the door.
Chanyeol felt an immense relief inside his chest. He knew he had gave into temptation yesterday. But he never imagined that it would have clouded his judgment and make him fall for it twice in a day. The fact that Chanyeol felt the urge to fuck Baekhyun twice a day was no new subject, however once he had actually done so he didn't know how to control himself. He wanted Baekhyun as his but Baekhyun was far too hurt for him to do it again.
Kyungsoo sighed and ran his hands through his hair.
"Baekhyun ended up at Hyerins house crying about you fucking him and another girl the same day" He began, walking towards the couch and sitting down. Chanyeol followed afterward,
      "I don't know what's wrong with me" replied Chanyeol, covering his eyes with his hand and sighing. Kyungsoo watched as Chanyeol almost exactly imitated Baekhyuns movements last night, talking about the same subject. He internally laughed, they were a lot closer then they even knew.
     "Well, why don't you explain yourself then?" Asked Kyungsoo. He was here to hear both sides, because how the hell were they going to perform together if Baekhyun was still an emotional train wreak because of his partner. Chanyeol gulped.
     "Baekhyun used to mean so much to me. I swore I had gotten over it after he left me 4 years ago, hell I hated him! But then he shows back up and I took him in because of that bastard Jongin" he finishes, ruffing up his hair from frustration.
       "Why the hell did you fuck him if you hated him then?" Kyungsoo laughed, then turned serious,"You didn't rape him did you?" Kyungsoo retorted to his own question. Chanyeols eyes grew and shook his hands.
     "No no no! I was positive he wanted it as well... We were both sexually frustrated and it just kinda happened" Chanyeol hastily replied. He scratched the nape of his neck while Kyungsoo proceeded to talk.
      " Of course, most idols are sexually and romantically deprived, however you two lucky bastards somehow fatefully reunite and don't have to experience that, yet somehow you still have not made up" replied kyungsoo, stating the bullshit right up to Chanyeols offended face.
     "What are you trying to say?" Asks Chanyeol dumbly, however knowing that Kyungsoos comment was most likely sarcasm.
     " I'm saying that you two obviously want each other yet you two won't make up. You two are having a lovers quarrel and your mistaking it as hate for him. " Chanyeol scoffed and gave kyungsoo a ridiculous look.
     "This is a lot more serious then a lovers quarrel. I don't even love him-" Chanyeol stopped himself as he realized what he was saying. How could he say that so relentlessly. Chanyeol, the guy who had promised himself he would do everything it took to fix their relationship. However , it seemed to be going no where. His efforts had been useless, and he was dumb enough to resort to other means. He went to some hookers to relieve his sexual appetite instead of telling Baekhyun straight up that he missed him. Maybe if he would actually talk to Baekhyun about his feelings he wouldn't be in such an awkward situation with him. It's almost as if Chanyeol doesn't want to admit he has those feelings. Chanyeol must be still holding on to his grudge.
     "See!" Exclaimed kyungsoo," You don't even want to realize your own feelings for him. You're still trapped in your grudge to realize it. And I know exactly how serious this is, Baekhyun told me things he has yet to tell you. You're hurting him, Chanyeol. You can't be selfish with your feelings. You have to open yourself to Baekhyun. Baekhyuns too scared to do anything because he doesn't want to worry you. He's been talking about how he can't be forgiven, it's sad Yeol. And you not being able to forgive him is affecting your relationship gravely"

Chanyeol looked down at the ground and his stomach sank. He felt a strong feeling in his lower gut of pure shame. Kyungsoo was right, if their relationship was going to be fixed It'd have to be him initiating the process. Baekhyun was the sinner and he was the condemner. He would have to set it straight.
     "Where is he now?" He asked Kyungsoo, pleading with his eyes. Kyungsoo stared back at his employer. He knew Chanyeol for only three years yet somehow he thought he had known everything about his best friend. He never imagined he had such a complicated love life behind him. What caught him off guard was that of all people, it would be Baekhyun. It was almost like a sappy romantic drama. He internally face palmed, while pulling out his phone and dialing Hyerins number. Once she picked up he requested to speak with Baekhyun, to which Chanyeols eyes grew and watch Kyungsoo closely. Kyungsoo then handed over the phone to Chanyeol. Chanyeols mouth gapped open waiting for an answer.
"Hello?" Asked the voice on the other line. Chanyeols heart leap. It was Baekhyun. He closed his eyes and felt shame. He was ashamed of causing Baekhyun so much pain. All due to his underlying grudge; the one he had convinced himself he would through away.
"Hey" replied Chanyeol, looking down. Chanyeol was thinking of all the other possible things he could have said besides a simple 'Hey' and suddenly he was mad at himself. However he was interrupted by Baekhyuns reply.
"Chanyeol?" He heard Baekhyun ask with an almost repugnant tone. Chanyeols heart sank.
"Baekhyun, Im so sorry" Chanyeol began before he was interrupted.
"Why would you be sorry? What did you do wrong?" Asked Baekhyun. Chanyeol gapped for a second.
"Yesterday of course, and every-" Chanyeol tried replying again only to be interrupted again. He heard Baekhyun scoff.
"We were just helping each other out remember? Like colleagues?" Baekhyun replied and Chanyeol felt like he was falling into pieces. Baekhyun was telling him the things he had told him, and he realized what a lame excuse that was.
"Baekhyun, that was stupid of me to say when I obviously didn't-"
"It wasn't stupid, you were right. It's not like we're together or anything. No strings attached right?" Replied Baekhyun, yet again interrupting Chanyeol.
"Baekhyun listen to me god damn it, stop acting dense! You know exactly what's going on between us. What, are you going to tell me that you weren't moaning my name when you jacked off in front of me? Are you going to pretend you didn't know I went to my own room to do the same as well?" Chanyeol almost yelled into the phone. Kyungsoos eyes grew and he stood up realizing that the situation had escalated.
"Chanyeol, no! I..." was all Baekhyun replied and Chanyeol could hear the surprised tone in Baekhyuns timbre.
"Come back home. There are things I need to tell you, but not on the phone, I'll pick you up if you need" Chanyeol offered, but didn't get a reply back as Kyungsoo took the phone away. Kyungsoo muttered a goodbye to Baekhyun and hung the phone up.
"Damn it, Chanyeol how complicated can you two get?" He said rubbing his temples.
"Look. Let's not do anything today. Just perform at the music show and don't talk about this. I got you two flights first thing tomorrow to Japan. That's where your first tour show was going to be at, but we're getting there early. Use that extra time to make up. For real"
Kyungsoo sighed and rubbed his eyes. It had been a long night, trying to reschedule their flights and hotel stays over the night just to hopefully recover the love birds dilemma.
"I shouldn't even be helping you with this. You two aren't even supposed to be dating. If you somehow make up and decided to be lovey dovey this can't get out to the public. It would probably make national headlines." Kyungsoo rejected the thought of that. It would be terrible for both of them if the news became public. He looked at Chanyeol spaced out. He rolled his eyes and recognized how his friend always spaced out like that. He was a heavy thinker and god knows what he was thinking about.
"Think about it all you want. But when we come from the tour I want both of you on good terms, romantically or mutually. Just fix that toxic relationship you have." Kyungsoo finished as he walked towards the door. He put his shoes back on and turned around to look at Chanyeol who was still spacing out. Kyungsoo sighed in frustration as he walked out of Chanyeols apartment. Why did he get stuck in between this mess. 'Why me' he asked the sky. Why was he even going along with it? Why was he helping out Chanyeol, giving him advice instead of shutting down this scandal completely. Chanyeol was his best friend, so of course he was speaking to Chanyeol personally rather than professionally. He just prayed they would at least get on good terms. If they continued this bad chemistry while performing together, who knows how long it'll be until their fans realize somethings wrong.
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I PROMISE they will talk officially soon. So please wait patiently T_T -D