Through the Dark | LT

Chapter 26

As Louis and I sat on the log silently, the sun began to set on the sea as I gaped in amazement. "Beautiful, isn't it?" Louis said randomly, catching me off guard. "Yeah..." I said, my mind wondering on other things. Louis turned his full attention to me and said, "Megan, what's wrong? You haven't really seemed yourself for a while."

I took a deep breath. Should I tell Louis that I still felt uneasy around him? Or should I just leave it be? I swallowed hard and said to Louis, "I just feel like... Like something from our friendship is missing... Something that was there before." Louis looked at me solemnly.

"You don't trust me, Megan."

I was taken aback by the statement that Louis had just uttered from his mouth... But yet, I didn't disagree. He continued, saying, "Whenever I find you slipping up, you always get uptight and defensive around me. You always open up to Liam, and you're starting to open up to Harry... But you don't trust me." I sat next to Louis, looking at the ground shamefully as he continued to read my mind.

"You haven't trusted me from the day that I left after X-Factor, have you?" My heart had shattered. He hit the bullseye. When Louis had left to go record and do gigs, he left me alone with my maniacal family. I was almost old enough to move out, but I still had to deal with my family. Louis was the only friend that I had, and his leaving broke my heart. Of course I was happy for him... I was over the moon for him. But, at the same time, he hadn't kept our friendship going when he went to America to perform and when he and the boys started getting bigger and bigger...

And I was scared he was going to abandon me again.

"L-Louis... How can you tell?" I asked shakily, feeling terrible thinking these things. I loved Louis like a brother... But the mere thought of him forgetting me and leaving me behind again was one that I couldn't bear. He looked down at me and said, "Explain why you don't trust me, Meg." He was calm, and his eyes beamed into mine caringly.

"I... I'm scared that when you go on tour again, you'll abandon me again. I'm scared that the bigger you get, the less that I'll mean to you. I'm scared that I'm gonna lose you again."

Louis grabbed my hand softly and said, "Let me explain this to you, Meggo..."