Through the Dark | LT

Chapter 35

Louis roughly grabbed my arm and pulled me towards the lounge room. His body was emanating fury, and it suddenly dawned on me why he was going to the lounge room- it was soundproof. Louis was pissed at me, but he has every right to be. He released me inside the lounge room, and he angrily shut the door behind him. I kept my gaze at his feet, too scared to look up at him.

"Look at me." He demanded in a husky voice, and my eyes slowly gazed upward. I finally caught his eyes, and they were the most vibrant shade of green I had ever seen. He was furious, and I was terrified. I had never seen him this angry. "Louis..." I said weakly, trying to talk to him. "Be quiet, Megan." He said through gritted teeth. "Lou-" My plea was cut off by his shrill yell. "MEGAN DIANA HENDERSON!" I immediately clammed up. Louis has never used my full name. Ever. I looked down at my feet nervously.

"Don't think that I'm going to just stop after that outburst. Tonight I'm not going to be the soft, cuddly big brother figure that you're so used to with me. I'm going to be nothing close to that. Now look at me." He whispered harshly, and my eyes warily caught his gaze. His jaw was clenched, and his eyes were still burning with fury.

"You were doing so well Megan! I'm pissed off! I don't even know what makes you be like this, what makes you depressed! If I did, I would try to take it away!" He yelped, his voice full if emotion. His now serious glare fell on me. The next phrase that left his mouth left me in utter shock.

"You're not the same person you were when we were younger... What happened to you..." He paused.

"You're not my best friend."

My eyes widened at Louis' statement. Those simple five words had just managed to crush my heart into a million little pieces. How could he say that? I've tried my absolute best for him. I've opened myself up to him more than I have to anyone else. I trusted him with everything... And he just said that to me?

All I could do was stare in disbelief and scoff at Louis. I got up and angrily pushed him out of the way, slamming the door open. I ran out the back door, and I slammed that behind me, and I kept running until I got to the campfire pit. I turned around to see nobody... Louis hadn't followed me out. He had made his point. I wasn't his best friend anymore. Why would he follow me out? He didn't care.

I sat at the campfire and took out my guitar. At any other time, I would have been crying. My heart was shattered so much so that the tears wouldn't fall from my face. I was in shock and awe of the past 10 minutes. I was in such a heartbreak that my emotions didn't feel anything... They almost felt numb.

I stared into the night sky, seeing the stars gleam down onto the ocean waves. It was a beautiful place for a vacation... It just didn't feel like one anymore. I was ruining it for the boys. I grabbed my guitar and my lucky pick, and I began strumming the chords to one of my favorite songs.

"Step one, you say, 'We need to talk.' He walks, you say, 'Sit down. It's just a talk.' He smiles politely back at you, You stare politely right on through, Some sort of window to your right, As he goes left and you stay right, Between the lines of fear and blame, You begin to wonder why you came... Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend, Somewhere along in the bitterness, And I would have stayed up with you all night, Had I known how to save a life...Let him know that you know best, 'Cause after all you do know best, Try to slip past his defense, Without granting innocence, Lay down a list of what is wrong, The things you've told him all along, Pray to God, he hears you, And I pray to God, he hears you... And where did I go wrong? I lost a friend, Somewhere along in the bitterness, And I would have stayed up with you all night, Had I known how to save a life... As he begins to raise his voice, You lower yours and grant him one last choice, Drive until you lose the road, Or break with the ones you've followed, He will do one of two things, He will admit to everything, Or he'll say he's just not the same, And you'll begin to wonder why you came... Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend, Somewhere along in the bitterness, And I would have stayed up with you all night, Had I known how to save a life... Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend, Somewhere along in the bitterness, And I would have stayed up with you all night, Had I known how to save a life..."

The lyrics softly flowed out of my mouth as I pondered how they described my current situation. The Fray was Louis' favorite band... I sighed heavily, and looked down at my guitar. I began to strum the chords to 'Kiss Me' by Ed Sheeran, and I blissfully stayed in that state of musical peace...

Until someone abruptly said in a low voice behind me, "Megan."