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*･ﾟﾟ･* soonyoung *･ﾟﾟ･* [2]

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[Soonyoung POV]

"i came back to see the house wrecked, you werent home and worse of all. i had to come back to seungcheol telling me you said i didnt love you anymore. how could you do this to me soonyoung?" her tears were everywhere. i couldnt do anything. i didnt know what i was thinking. maybe i was a little too sad i hadnt seen her in a few days because shes been busy with work.

"answer me kwon soonyoung" she whispered silently as more tears spilled. "im sorry y/n. i really am. i was just really upset i didnt get to see you for a long period of time and it really got to me." i answered weakly. i started walking to her direction. "im really sorry my princess. i really am. please, please dont do this to me. i love you so much." my voice sounding like it was about to crack anytime.

she just looked away and leaned back on the bed. "why did you say i didnt love you soonyoung." she asked. i was frozen on spot. her words shocked me. i know i uttered them, but i was completely drunk. "im sorry y/n. i really am. its just i was drunk, and i was tired, you were ignoring my calls and all you did was work and payed no attention to me." i sighed. all she could do was sigh in response. "please dont leave me." i said.

she sighed. "soonyoung listen. im sorry if im always stuck up with my work but thats what i have to do. im sorry i dont regularly spend time with you anymore due to my busy schedule, but please know. i have never once said you never loved me when you went on tour, when you left me for fanmeets or fansigns and for the days you werent even home because you were at the dorm with the boys practicing for days up until weeks. i understand your job soonyoung and i dont want to be selfish." she ended. i thought to myself. why was i so selfish. why didnt i think about her, how she thought about me. i was 2 years older than her yet, she has a mind of a mature woman and im still stuck with a mind of a child.

i sighed heavily. "im sorry im selfish, im sorry i never thought about your work like how you thought about mine. im sorry im always so clingy and im sincerely, very, very, sorry that i said you didnt love me. i thought you ignoring my calls and the boys' were because you were with someone else, but i assumed wrong. i am regretful of what i have said and done." i hung my head low in disgrace.

i was embarrassed to even look at her. she crawled up to me and hug my head. "i understand soonyoung, i feel like that all the time, but its all about trust." as she rests her chin on my head.
i was still so embarrassed i still didnt want to face her. she sighs another time. she lifts her chin off of my head, "look at me soonyoung." she says. i slowly lift my head up and she brushed her tumbs against my cheeks. "if you want to take a break, just tell me okay." she said softly.

my vision were clouded by more tears, more tears spilled. "p-ple-please. just dont leave me. i love you so much." i hugged her tight. "i dont want a break, i just want us. together. please." i stated. choking on tears. she then pushes me off her gently. "kwon soonyoung, i love you as much as you love me and your job. youre my little bright star. i would hate myself if i were to leave you. i wouldnt have forgiven myself if i did so. if i were to leave you, who is going to be the one looking after you when you get sick? when you hurt yourself? when you fight with the other members?. listen soonyoung, i love you with all my heart, but sometimes taking a break would be nice. we still are living under the same roof. we just have to restart over alright." she smiled at me.

i was out of words. i felt like a useless boyfriend. i couldnt even console her yet she is the best at comforting words. "thank you princess. youre really my guardian angle." i said as i embrace her tightly, appreciating every bit of the moment i could spend with her.

[A/N]
hello everyone!!!! im done w part2!!! i hope you like it!!! the ending is more towards an angsty-fluff but .1% of fluff ending so yeah... im sorry if its shitty... goodnight doe!
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