seventeen imagines

*･ﾟﾟ･* chan *･ﾟﾟ･*

you have been dating dino the dancing maknae of seventeen the rising rookie boy group of south korea for the past 2 years and you have seen how fame has eaten him slowly. (a/n he aint like that tho T^T). he slowly rejected your calls and ignored the hell out of you. you were half as done with him but you dont want to throw a 2 year old relationship down the drain just like that. you have been contemplating on telling him you want this relationship to be over since you have had enough of suffering alone elsewhere he was enjoying himself with all the fame that has consumed him.

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timeskip

you walked into your shared apartment and as usual, its cold and empty. you were reminiscing the memories of when the house was bright, happy and warm filled with the boys', dino and your laughter. your tears were filling the brims of your eyes. you were struggling, trying not to cry. you sat your bags down by the sofa and walked towards your shared room. you laid on your shared bed and as you expected, you couldnt hold it in. you just cried your eyes out. "why does all the bad things happen to me?" you said loud. "why did you change?! lee chan. why did you change?!" your screams turn into soft sobbing whispers. you couldnt save yourself from this pain any longer. you started packing your things into the bags you had laying around and called your brother. kim mingyu.

//calling ratgyu 🐁//

m; "ne, y/n?"
y/n; "are you busy?"
m; "ani. wae?"
y/n; "can we meet up? i need to talk to you."
m: "oh? wae? is everything alright? why not come to the dorm? dino might-"
mingyu didnt get to finish his sentence and you felt your blood boil while filled with sorrowfulness
y/n; "no kim mingyu. just meet me at the usual cafe. period."
m;"a-a-ah. okay then. ill see you in a bit."
//call ended//

after the call, you got up and freshened up bringing along the stuff you previously packed to meet up with your brother.

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you reached the café and as expected your brother is already there waiting for you. "ah y/n. here" he his hand signalling for your attention. you walked towards him and sat your bags aside. "y/n sweetheart. wae?" he asked you. eyes filled with concern. "i cant do it anymore ming." you utter under your breath. he looked at you, his gaze softened. he knew what you were talking about. "is this your final decision?" he said as he moved to the seat next to you hugging you sideways. you just nod into his chest. crying lightly. "well, this is the end? its okay. its your decision." he said. "here the keys to my apartment. you can stay there for now." he added as he handed the keys to his apartment to you. "thank you ming. thank you so much." you hugged him tight. "kim y/n. im your brother. ill always be there for you. now you should go back home, freshen up and call chan and settle what you have to; so you dont keep hurting yourself." your brother says as he rubs your back to console you.
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you reached your brothers apartment and as you enter the house the smell of his cologne filled the room. it made you feel safe and at home. you freshen up and did as your brother told; call lee chan.
//calling chan//
y/n; "hello?"
c; "yea y/n? why are you calling me?"
y/n; "wow i cant even call you now?"
you scoffed.
c; "a-ani. im just busy right now. cant you call me later?"
you groaned mentally and bit your lip as you tried to not cry and breakdown over the phone.
y/n; "lee chan listen. ive had enough of this. i cant do this anymore. im ending it here once and for all."
you felt the tears roll out of the brim of your eyes like it was ready to do so.
c; "y-y/n. what do you mean?"
you took a deep breath.
y/n; "its over lee chan. im done with you."
// call ended //
you didnt let even dino reply because you were already in tears and you just couldnt bare all the pain anymore.
lee chan / dinos POV
what just happened? i thought to myself. i walked out to my room and saw mingyu hyung sitting on the couch. i walked towards him going to ask about whats wrong with y/n since hes her brother. "ah hyung" i called out. mingyu didnt even look at me he just glared at me and i was confused. i didnt know what i did wrong. "thanks for hurting my sister, you punk. i knew i shouldnt have trusted you and i shouldve trusted scoups hyung better. youre just and immature kid who plays with girls' feeling. oh right, you are! a kid. you dont even know what love means. youre so reckless with your actions and you know nothing about how to give or how to even love someone. ive had enough of you." mingyu half yelled at me. i was shocked, i didnt know what to do because i dont know what i did wrong in the first place. i figured i could go home and see if y/n was home so we could clear the situation.
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i reached the apartment to find it empty and cold. i walked towards our shared room not to find anything but a messed up bed and a broken picture frame. i walked further to y/ns study desk and saw a book and i decided to flip through it and a specific page caught my eye.
12:00a.m. 28.03.17, i dont even know the day anymore.
"again, today ive been left alone in the rain at school. chan said hed pick me up for my birthday lunch but guess thats just another lie?. sigh.. i dont know what to do anymore. i dont want to ruin this relationship. i love chan so much but he clearly doesnt love me. ive trued to work things out but either when i visit them during off days i would end up hanging out in my brother or his room sleeping or just talk to cheollie oppa. sometimes i think cheolli loves me more than chan. sometimes i regret falling for him.. but i knew he was the one.. now.. im just waiting for the day to tell him, i cant stand this pain any longer. well i guess ill go now... ill write more entries soon... goodnight... i wish death would just come upon me soon."
love, y/n.
i felt tears running down my cheek and i now notice what i have finally done to her. i let all the fame consume me and i didnt even care about her. i even made her think that seungcheol hyung loves her more. what have i done.
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after a billion attempts on calling y/n she finally picks up.
c; "hello?"
it was silent.
c; "baby listen-"
y/n; "dont you even think about baby-ing me lee chan. we are over. what more do you want from me?!"
she was yelling. this was the first time i heard her yell to me.
c; "y/n listen please- im really sorry-"
y/n; "enough with your cheap talks and fake lies. ive had enough of you. we are over. now stop contacting me."
and she hung up. she hung up on me. she doesnt usually do that since it was always me but, i think ive fucked up bad.

TIMESKIPPPP

its been eight months since i last saw her. this is her first time in eight months setting foot in our dorm. ive missed her smile, her laughter, her cheekiness; but i was too consumed in fame that i lost all that. after the breakup i wasnt ready to face her. ive never contacted her afterwards and my relationship with mingyu hyung became awkward and irrelevant. "cheol oppa!!" i heard y/n yell calling for seungcheol hyung. and hearing seungcheol replying her with a "yes sweetheart" made my heart shatter. she has gotten closer to seungcheol over the past eight months since our breakup since he has always been there for her. i dont even know if theyre dating or not because they have always been close. i pluck the courage up to walk out of the room to see y/n and seungcheol on the couch cuddled up nicely and the boys were sitting on the ground all enjoying the movie. i saw seungkwan stand up and he glanced over to me. he gave me a disappointed look because he never thought i would become so big headed and ignorant. i just walked back into my room and i heard a knock on my door. i was tired and upset to even answer but the person made its way in anyway. i stood up and was in shocked when i saw it was mingyu hyung. "ah- hyung. what is it?" i asked him embarrassed. "nothing. i just want to check on you. seungkwan said you came out but when in again so i was just wondering why you wouldnt want to join us all." he replied. "ah. i was checking out on the noise since i was busy studying." i utter softly. "well, if you think you would stop being a dick soon maybe you can come and join us. im pretty sure youre now irrelevant in y/ns life. shes already happy with who shes with now. someone who trusts her and protects her." he replied and left my room. so i sat there wondering to myself so its true she and hyung is dating and i felt the tears filling the brims of my eyes. why was i so dumb?

[AUTHORS NOTE]
heLLO MY LITTLE SMOL PEANUTS. I HOPE THIS ANGST WAS ANGSTY ENOUGH. IM SORRY IF THIS SUCKED. BUT HEY I TRIED!!!! tHIS MIGHTVE BEEN THE LONGEST ONE IVE WROTE SO fAR & iTS SHOOKING THAT SHE ENDED UP DATING CHEOL BECAUSE UM why invest on a relationship that doesnt benefit both sides? am i right? haha
also!! happy eid-ul fitr' to all my muslim readers!!! hv a great one!!
- 하나 💗