Depression ~Michael Clifford

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Michael was sat in his tour bunk trying to keep his crying as silent as possible.

Everything was shit at the moment for poor Michael. He was diagnosed with depression at the young age of 13, he never really left the house, he didn't see the point. But as the band got bigger Michael got better. The fans were there for them and he felt loved,he doesn't know what changed. 

He started feeling more down than usual,the hate became harder to ignore, he even had trouble eating. The other boys didn't know,they couldn't know. They were the ones that supported Michael and helped him through his depression,he couldn't let them down. Not anymore.

His breathing quickened as he heard Luke walking towards the bunks, he held his breath and prayed that he was moving to use the bathroom,His silent prayer seemed  to work as he heard the door to the bathroom being closed and he let out a breath and a sniffle and tried to dry his tears with his sweater paws.

 But his actions stopped abruptly as Luke apparently wasn't the one using the bathroom as he heard his footsteps right next to his bunk.

"Mikey?" Luke talked in such a soft voice that it was pretty obvious he knew Michael was crying, but Michael couldn't let them find out so he did the one thing he did best. Lie.

"That's me" Michael let out a fake laugh in a desperate attempt to shatter Lukes worries about him.

Luke however wasn't falling for it. Not when he had seen the damage Michael could do to himself during his worst days, so he pulled away the curtain to Michaels bunk and the sight broke him.

Michael was sat in one of the corners of the bunk, tears still cascading down his cheeks and a big fake smile plastered on his face.

"Come here Michael, why don't we go talk ok?" Luke said with a kind smile and worried eyes as he held out his arms for Michael

Michael let out a sniffle and wiped away the tears from his face a bit harsher than necessary. Luke noticed this and pried Michaels hands away from angrily rubbing his eyes in disappointment of himself

"Michael stop that. Now C'mon let's have a chat, do you want me to get the other guys?"

"N-no i'm fine."

"Michael you're sitting in your bunk crying, i'm not letting you do this to yourself again. You either come with me or i'll carry you."

Ashton and Calum came strolling through talking about some movie they watched until they saw Michaels tear stained face and their happy exterior dropped to a serious one in seconds.

"Hey, what's up Mikey?" Ashton spoke up with the same kind smile Luke had used when he found him. This only made Michael more frustrated, he was fine he didn't need everyone worrying. He was a big boy, and knew how to handle himself.

"Nothing , Just miss home and shit. I'll be fine i just need some time alone ok? thanks ,bye" Michael attempted to close his curtain but Ashton ripped them open again and wrapped is muscular arms around Michael to carry him to the back room of the bus for their "chat"

" is today bad day Michael? " Calum asked, worry evident in his voice

Michael wanted to say that it was more of a bad month but that would mean constant smothering from his bandmates and therapist appointments, and that was something he could live without,  So he lied once again to his best friends.

It's not like Michael wanted to lie, he hated it actually but he did what he thought was best for both him and the boys

" yeah I've just been a bit off today, I think I might be catching a cold or something " Michael said quickly and they seemed to buy it cause for the rest of the night they cuddled on the couch, Michael in the middle, and saw Michaels favorite movies in a attempt to make the boy happy again.

But it would take a lot more than movies to cheer him up...

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