Depression ~Michael Clifford

4

After a very one sided conversation with Ashton They finally got back to the tour bus , unfortunately for Michael it was just a quick pit stop.

All he wanted was to curl up in his bunk under the blankets, cuddle Daniel and cry in the non existing privacy of the tour bus

But that wasn't his reality

The boys started to gather their instruments for the show and Michael was picking out an outfit when he saw a tail sticking out from under the sheets, Daniel. 

Michael couldn't help it, he needed someone to cuddle and he wasn't going to bother the others with something as meaningless as a cuddle.

He swiftly grabbed the stuffed lion and stuffed it down his bag of clothes and headed after his band mates.

When they arrived at the arena they all headed out to sound check, the rest of the guys were fooling around screaming the lyrics off key and in most situation Michael would've thought it was funny and may even join in,but not today.

 The empty feeling that settled in his chest had now expanded throughout his entire body capturing Michael in a forever numb state.

Despite all of this he couldn't afford to worry the boys once again so despite the overwhelming feeling of numbness plus his raging headache Michael put on another of his famous fake smiles and pretended to enjoy himself.

After what felt like hours for Michael sound check was finally done so they went into their lounge (what's the accurate word?) and Michael decided he couldn't stand being awake any longer so he went over to his bag and tried to discretely snatch Daniel for a cuddle,however his action didn't go unnoticed since Ashton had been keeping a very close eye on the guitarist

"Whatcha got there Mike?" He didn't see what Michael had grabbed from the bag but decide to give him the benefit of the doubt and ask him instead of assuming the worst,this caught the attention of the other two casually making small talk while eating their dinner.

"I-i uhm i-it's nothing."

This didn't help the drummers suspicion as he swiftly stood up from the chair, walking calmly to Michael.

"You sure?" Ashton hummed 

"Y-yes i was just making sure i packed uhm... underwear?"

Ashton gently grabbed Michaels wrist ,while Micheal struggled to get out of his hold, and grabbed whatever he was holding

But since the guitarist wasn't that strong and Ashtons biceps are pretty amazing Ashton easily pinned down his wrists and grabbed Daniel from his arms. The taller of the two studies the lion for a bit before gently putting it back in the blondes arms and stepping forward to wrap the small boy in his arms 

"I'm sorry Mikey I just wanted to make sure..." he says silent enough for the other two band members to be oblivious of the conversation

"I-I promise i'm alright Ashy, I j-just wanted a c-cuddle" Michael whispers but despite the low tone his voice still cracks and Aston hugs him a bit tighter,

"that's totally fine Michael. But you do know you can always come to me or the other guys for a cuddle or just to talk alright?"

Michael sniffles a bit and snuggles deeper in Ashtons arms .

"C'mon cutie, let's go lay down yeah?"

The drummer doesn't wait for an answer before carrying the light boy to the couch, instantly snuggling up next to him and becoming the bigger spoon, Cause despite what he says Michael is always the little spoon.