Depression ~Michael Clifford

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So I decided to go in a more ot4 direction thanks to you guys! You truly are the best, so thank you for all the comments and suggestions on my last update it helped a lot! Hope you enjoy this chapter<3 

The movie night didn't last long for Michael. He managed to fall asleep somewhere on the second movie 'spiderman homecoming' and was softly snoring away as a drooling mess at the end of the couch.

Calum shifted a bit so he was awkwardly positioned against Ashton but somehow still being turned to Luke"Uh, Ashton? Could you explain to me what just happened up there? I know i'm not the most educated in the area but I want to learn more  so I can be there for Michael. I realised today how much I lack understanding for what he's going through and I hate to be the person who doesn't know how to handle it." Calum teared up a bit but quickly swallowed his sadness for the guitarist and wiped his eyes.

Ashton's eyes softened, he knew the maori boy wanted to understand in order to care for Michael in the best way which warmed his heart.

Luke spoke up as well "yeah I want to learn too, I know that Michael isn't going through this alone since he has you guys but I want to be there for him as well. And I definitely don't want to be the one who upsets or hurts him in any way just because i'm ignorant you know?"

Ashton's heart bloomed with pride and admiration for his band members. Sure they were all immature teens but they could still step up and support each other when they needed to.

After that Ashton began talking about eating disorders and what had occurred previously that night. After a few hours of talking they decided to continue their movie marathon but before they started another movie Luke made sure to carry the alarmingly light band member to bed so that the sound of the TV wouldn't wake him up.

The three remaining members laid sprawled out on top of eachother in a form of questionable cuddling. The TV played some old action movie but no one paid it any attention, they were all too focused on each other to notice the rapid fire of the machine guns, the bloodcurdling scream of someone dying or even the sound of a small band mate sobbing, all alone in his bedroom.

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Michael was exhausted.

Anyone would be after the sleep deprivation he had encountered these last few weeks. His dreams were haunted by nightmares who kept him up and the days he had actually slept through the night were few and only happened when he was surrounded by one of his band mates.

Michael was running on little to no sleep (or food for that matter) and he was slowly reaching the point where his body was on the edge of collapsing. Lucky for him he had very observant bandmates surrounding him at every point of the day, so when Michael arrived downstairs one morning looking fatigued and ready to faint at any moment they decided to speak up.

"Michael? You doing okay buddy? You look like death." Calum said

Michael just raised an eyebrow to tired to give a vocal response. "How much are you sleeping Mike? you always seem tired" Luke asked his voice low and compassionate.

Michael didn't feel the need to lie anymore to his band at least not concerning this topic so he spoke his mind"Uhm, I'm having trouble sleeping cause of the nightmares I guess. I don't know why but I just can't fall asleep and the few times I manage the nightmares wake me up. The only time I really get to sleep is when uh..."

"When you what Michael?" Ashton asked, willing to try anything to help Michael in any way possible.

"....When I'm not alone, like when ehh I sleep with you guys" Michael cheeks grew red at his statement and looked down at the floor to avoid eye contact after his sappy words.

"Well that settles it then, we'll just sleep together." Ashton said earning snickers and giggles from Luke and Calum because of the 'sleeping together'.

The smallest  member grew even more flushed at Ashton's words. He would never admit it but he did have the occasional crush on various members but lately with all of them in such close quarters his feelings were getting stronger and it was beginning to affect Michael.

He struggled with eye contact ,or just touching in general. He was blushing pretty much constantly nowadays and the boys were picking up on it too. But they simply waved it off as sleep deprivation or Michael being too shy to be in the spotlight all the time(which was also a reason)

Michael let out a yawn, it was now about 3 PM and Michael had eaten breakfast but managed to get out of lunch. They had a few hours before dinner would be ready and Ashton had a proposition "Hey Michael why don't we go take a nap until dinner, It's Luke's day to cook anyway so we won't be needed and you're in desperate need of some sleep."

Michael was too tired to protest but apparently he wasn't tired enough to stop the burning shade of red that covered not only his cheeks but making his whole body flush.

The two started making their way to Ashton's room when Calum decided he didn't want to be lonely when Luke started cooking so he trailed behind them. When they reached Ashton's room two of three stripped down to their boxers while the third one nervously shuffled his feet,trying not to stare too much at the basically naked (and hot) boys in front of him.

They laid down on the bed Michael sweating from being squished between two males and on top of that being in a long sleeved shirt and some trackers. Despite all of the factors Michael fell asleep within the next five minutes and stayed asleep without nightmares haunting his dreams. At least not this time

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Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo how was your day? mine was kinda sucky so not a good start to the new year but hopefully the rest of the year will turn out good! Happy new year everybody hope 2017 was good for you and that 2018 will turn out even better<3

Random question of the day: What's your favorite bands/musicians besides 5sos??

Mine are probably Panic!at the disco, All time low , Halsey, A day to remeber, chase atlantic, blink 182 and many many more :D

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