Back To Me

Chapter 5

All FSOG character and names belong to E.L James

Original character and storyline belong to me.

************WARNING********** THIS CHAPTER RECALLS SEXUAL ASSAULT AND RAPE. I DO NOT GO INTO DETAIL OF THE SEXUAL ACT BUT I JUST WANTED TO WARN YOU BEFORE HAND.

Candace POV

"Have you guys set a date yet?" Kate ask me as watch Christian and Ana walk towards his elevator. It's so sad to see two people who clearly love each other not being together. Don't get me wrong I love Christian but I am not in love with him. He is my best friend and one of the only men I feel completely comfortable around. Zack ruined me for I fear for life. He was what I thought to be my soul mate and I honestly thought I would marry him and have kids. You know that fairy tale happily ever after but that was not meant to be. We started dating when I was 16 and he was 18. He was my first in every way. When we kissed I felt sparks fly and it didn't take long for him to talk me into having sex. I really wanted to wait but he said that if I loved him then I would want to be together in all ways.

I try to live my life without regrets, but that is one thing I wish I could take back. I wish I would have listened to my women's intuition because she was yelling "Danger Will Robinson" but I thought I loved him so I ignored her. We were together for 3 years almost and looking back now I can see he was nothing but a player. I always thought I had the best friends a girl can have but all of them jumped at the chance to sleep with Zach the minute he offered. Most of those girls I had known since I was 8 years old and now I have very few female friends. I trust women almost as much as I trust men which is very little.

I wasn't this way before Zach, but the minutes I walked into his house and saw my best friend since 1st grade Natalie riding his cock something in me snapped. It made it even worse when they smirked at me and kept having sex. I almost ran out crying but decided to express my anger and hurt by punching him in his face. That took them both by surprise and before he could throw her off him and come after me I turned and ran out of his house.

I didn't see either of them for nearly a month except when I was walking on campus. Natalie came to my house two days before of my 19th birthday crying and saying she was sorry for ruining the best friendship she'd ever had. I wasn't buying it but I wanted my best friend back so I forgave her. My biggest mistake in my life was allowing her back into my life.

The weekend of my 19th birthday my dad was out of town on business so I decided to throw a party. I invited Natalie has a show of faith in our friendship. After two hours I wasn't feeling well so and I didn't understand why until the next day.

Apparently Zach and Natalie had been in a relationship at the same time as he and I. They decided that since I was "such a preppy stuck up rich bitch" their words. I deserved to be played by them but what she wasn't expecting was for him to sleep with all our friends too. She snapped and believed I was the reason he cheated on her. So as a way of getting revenge against me they drugged my drink and Zach raped me.

When I woke up the next day he was sitting in the corner smirking at me. I looked down and realized I was naked and my lower body was extremely sore. I knew what happened but I asked him expecting him to lie but he admitted it to my face. He liked that he forced me to have sex with him. He left the room making the worst mistake of his life with saying.

"What are you gonna do about it, huh? Nothing because you are a worthless piece of trash and no one would believe you." He laughed an evil menacing laugh while slamming the door.

I just sat in bed for an hour rocking back and forth while crying just trying to get my head around what happened. I knew I couldn't let them get away with it. I couldn't live with myself if I let him walk and he did it again.