Teenage Life (& Lies)

Chapter 4

 I went from class to class the rest of the day, without embarrassing myself. Thank God. I remained fairly quiet, unless I had to answer a question or something. Then as lunch approached, I got a bit anxious. At recess I'm planning to ask Chris if he likes me and if he wants to go out, and if he says yes, my life would be complete. I'm trying not to be too cliché when asking him or at least I hope I won't.

Finally the lunch bell rang. I practically jumped out of my seat and got my lunch bag from our closet. It was soon jammed with kids getting theirs too. I had to squeeze to get by. When I got out I looked to see who is on duty today. Ugh....Sr. Anne is on duty. Damn. I won't be able to ask Chris out. Damn. Why does she have to separate boys and girls anyway?! We're not going to do anything are we?! I walk down the stairs to the cafeteria, my enthusiasm draining, and my hunger increasing, surprisingly. Luckily the tables are gender separated. Now I don't have to sit next to Chris or anywhere nears him. You know I'm really starting to like his name. Christopher Coughlin. Hmmmmmm....

Recess comes and Sr. Anne makes us walk around the school yard; boys go in one direction, girls the opposite. Ugh, I hate this. By the time recess is over, I'm tired from walking in a square. As everyone file into the classroom, I come up with a brilliant idea to impress Christopher. Now all I do is wait for History class and for the teacher to be out of the room.

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It's one o'clock and the teacher hasn't stepped out once. UGH! Come on, stupid teacher! Go outside! Go to the bathroom! Go call someone! Do something OUTSIDE of the classroom! I am supposedly taking notes but I really want to impress Christopher now! Why can't anything go right for me?!! Ugh! Then as if the teacher can read my mind, he tells the class he's going to go out. For what?? The bathroom! Duh!! I stand up and walk across the room. As I go to get a tissue, I see our teacher walking down the hallway. I flatten my skirt and once more on what I'm going to do. Then I make my DARING move.

I AM GOING TO JUMPOVER MY DESKINTO MY CHAIR!!!

I walk over to my desk as calmly as I can. When I reach the front of my desk, I look side to side. Hmmmmmm.... Cora looks up, so does Chris, and a few other do too. Then I do it. I jump over my desk, closing my eyes. I miss calculate. I'm too short. Then BAM! I slide on my desk, mess up, knock down my chair, and end up falling on my side, the chair right next to my. It makes a loud CRASH! I still have my eyes close. When I open them, I can see Anthony looking down at me, and I can hear the teacher walking in. “Alexandra, are you alright? I heard a loud noise.” I can feel pain searing on my hip, but I suck it in. I refuse to feel vulnerable. “Uh.., err, yeah I'm fine.” I give a little forced laugh, “I guess I fell out of my chair. Sorry.”

“Uh, Okay then.” I look at him and can tell he doesn't buy, but instead of pestering me, he just walks over to his desk, and sits down. I get up slowly. How stupid I must look. Falling down, and having the teacher see me. Groans. I pick up my chair and sit down.

Nobody is looking at me anymore. They're all doing something else, like writing notes. Sigh, how come I always manage to make a fool out of myself?! Damn. Why me?!! I take out my notebook and start to write down some random gibberish. I need to find a way to make Chris like me, before I ask him. …..

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It's last period, the longest one in the day: Religion. We are supposed to be doing some worksheet, but I can't focus. The teacher puts on some notes to take down on the projector. A few people can't see so the move somewhere else. Jennifer and Anthony decide to move to the floor. Next thing you know it, I'm next to Chris. I am suddenly nervous. What should I do? Should I ask him right now? My mind is blank. Then, an idea pops into my head. I know exactly what to do.

I will pass a note!

Okay, it may not be that brilliant but I don't think I have ever passed a note in my life. Yup. So today I will pass my first note. Let's hope the teacher doesn't catch me. This is so exciting!!! I grab my pencil bag and take out an index card. Hmmmmmm I wonder what should I write. Oh! Now I know!

I write what I think would be appropriate: “hi” I fold the note and discreetly pass it to Chris. When he gets it, he looks at me, and then opens the note. He grabs his pencil, scribbles something down, folds the note, and passes it back. I open it to see, “hey.” Okay, now should I ask him? …............

I scribble down my question and pray for the best. “Do you umm like me?” I fold it and pass it back. He opens it, pauses, starts to scribble down something, pauses again, makes a face, and then writes again, before passing it back to me. I open it up, praying he did say yes. “ Ummm..well...yes”

I instantly feel like butterflies are in my stomach. I feel so giddy! So he does like me! He truly likes me! I feel like I could stand up and just scream, yet at the same point I just want to sit here and stare at the note. I turn to Chris and whisper-call him. “Chris”

He turns around and faces me, “What?”

“Umm, thank you.”

For what?” He has a puzzled face. I give him a small faint smile.

“For everything” And with that I turn around and I think I just blushed.

Heh. I am soooo giddy right now. I still can't believe he likes me. I never thought someone could actually like me. I mean I was always the weird one. Of course back then I was depressed and emo, but now I'm not like that anymore. Maybe that's why! That's it! This year I will be different! I'm going to change my personality! Because if I do, everyone will like me and I will finally be popular! I mean, if one boy likes me, doesn't that mean I'm not that pitiful loser at the bottom of the pyramid anymore? Yes! Oh, now I can't wait for next week to begin! This year is truly going to be a blast! Or so I pray!

Go ME!!!!