Teenage Life (& Lies)

Chapter 11

I am last in line, but as I enter the small gym, the teacher yells for us to go outside. I am now, suddenly, first in line. I go up the stairs and out the door to the playground. I see on the ground a bag full of Frisbees and balls. By the time everyone is out, the teacher yells for everyone to line up. I try to line up near Dominic, without looking like I'm trying to, of course. We all do our stretching, which takes about ten minutes. Finally, the teacher tells us what we are going to do today. “You are going to be playing Ultimate Frisbee!” I just look at the teacher and wonder, 'Why Frisbee? Why not catch or baseball, or basketball?'

The teacher splits us into groups and thankfully I'm with Dominic. He passes out Frisbees to each group to practice throwing and catching with. I try to impress Dominic with my catching and throwing Frisbee skills, but alas, I have never played Frisbee before so in the end I suck.

For some reason, even if gym is horrible, I'll always turn into a good mood. It's hard not to be mad or grumpy when running outside or inside. Although I'm clumsy and can't throw, I manage to make Dominic laugh as well as run for it. Soon it's time to play the actual game. I'm not on Dominic's team, so it's fun without the stress of trying to impress.

By the end of the period we are all tired. My team had won today and I'm glad for that. A few minutes right before its time to back in, the teacher tell everyone to crowd around him. He tells us our “gym” homework, but me, I'm too busy to focus on him. Dominic is next to me and I hope I look like I'm discreetly staring at him. His dull brown hair complimented his pale face. Though he was taller I can see all his side features. He wasn't built, which I prefer. I know gym was almost over, so I mustered up my courage and tried to ask him out. Suddenly as I ask him out I feel like I'm entering a thick haze. I can't quite focus on his words but as we walk into the building, my mind calculates that he had said yes. I become giddy. It was easy to ask out a guy, but in the back of my head I wonder if he was the one. My heart claims he is, but when have I ever let my heart decide what I do?

Before I know it, I realize my body had controlled itself, and I'm seating in my seat in the class room. There are only a few minutes left in school, so I decide to talk to Dominic while getting ready to pack up. Though when I look up towards his desk, he's not there. Oh well, I say in my head, but inside my heart is beating faster with worry. What if he had said no and I just assumed it was a yes? I pushed the thought to the side and turned my mind back to packing up.

The class is gone and only the bus people are left in the room. I look around and remember that I'm not the only person in this school. One of the kids in my class had been expelled. Well, after two suspensions, he'd been expelled. The first time for talking back to Sr. Anne and the second for sticking out his middle finger at the crossing lady, whom was also the lunch lady. I sigh and put my head to my desk. Besides for my sudden relationships, this school year, so far, sucks. Our teacher, Mr. Moss is okay. I don't think he's knows much about teaching. My little brother likes Mr. Moss, but that's only because I think Mr. Moss is suited for little kids. I mean he's a nice guy but not a really fantastic teacher. This is his first year being a teacher so I guess that's his excuse.

I look around and see everyone talking to someone. I stand up and look out the window. I wave at several people. Since the window is open I yell down at a few people. I say hi to Dominic and Anthony. I silently wish that Dominic could take the bus with me, but he lives far away.

Christopher is next to me but I still talk to him. He's a nice guy. Even though he had broke up with me, I feel no harsh feelings to him. And if I could I don't think I would. You see I have a problem. Well it's not a bad thing, its just that I have a problem disliking or hating items. I get bothered a lot though. For example pink bothers me and I refuse to wear it but I don't hate it.

Anyway, the bus arrives and everyone trails out. I walk as the last person. I talk to Dominic and Anthony on the way out. Then I realize that as I go on the bus that I want to kiss Dominic or at least hug him. I sit next to Chris and ask him if I could listen to is music with him. He says yes and for the rest of the bus ride we talk and listen to metal music.

When I reach home, I go over what Chris and I have talked about. He had told me a lot about his family as did I, but of course I had fibbed a bit because I felt so boring compared to him. I had vowed that I wouldn't lie to anyone that I liked but it was so hard. I felt useless. I changed and started my homework, wondering how Dominic will be like tomorrow, the first day of being my boyfriend.

I chuckled to myself softly feeling again the emotion of giddiness and I think, for a first, love.