Teenage Life (& Lies)

Chapter 15

It's Monday night. That means tomorrow will be Tuesday, which means I will be able to see Dominic tomorrow. Sadly there was no school today because of a holiday, but tomorrow that time will be made up. After what happened Thursday, nothing will stop me from loving Dominic. Friday was great. I mean after that I haven't been able to get enough of him. I had brought to school a little lizard, fake of corse, that I had gotten this summer at my vacation bible school, and gave it to him. I hope he had liked it.

Now with tomorrow looming closer and closer, I have set a new goal for myself. I plan that this week I will be able to kiss Dominc. I have dreamed for years of getting my first kiss and I hope this year, Dominic will give that moment to me.

Although technically, he would not be my first kiss. You see back in kindergarten, I was very weird and yet mature for my age. My parents let me watch CSI and other shows that had sexual scenes. Anyway, I was fascinated with kissing and this "thing" people did in bed, called sex. So when I was in Kindergarten, I chose a boy whom looked cute and aimed to like that person and for that person to return the feelings. So during nap time, I picked this kid, who I thought was the one.

He was of course sleeping, but hey I kissed him. In days that came, I grew to like him. I had kissed him and held his hand. Little did I know that during this time, other people, my classmates, had seen. For years to come theboy would grow up to make fun of me. I still liked the boy, but I knew that we could never be together.

Now in a different school, we don't share classes with each other, which he thinks is great. Hey, I don't get teased anymore by him now, so I too, think its great. Sooo anyway, to get back to the point, this boy I had kissed in Kindergarten was technically my first kiss, whether he kissed me back or not. But I can't count it. I just can't. IT WAS KINDERGARTEN! And now I'm in eighth grade, which is a big time gap. Soooo Dominic is technically, if we kiss, my first kiss.

I lay on my bed and think. How can I get Dominic to kiss me? I try to think how to get Dominic in the mood or something to persuade him, but try as I might, I can't figure a damn thing in my head. I image scenes of him kissing me in my head. Then a question pops up in my head, how do you kiss? I have never kissed anyone since kindergarten and even back then I don't even think I knew how. I have read several books this year about love and stuff, but how do you kiss?

I reach over to the side of my bed and pull out a romance novel that I have been reading recently. I used to hate romance, but now-a-days, these types of books have been helping me a lot. Maybe if I read more of these type of books back then, then maybe I would've been already dating someone.

I flip through the book and stop at the sex scene. Although I have read this book many times over this month, I still enjoy reading this part. It always gives me funny feelings. I wish that someday I could be that person in the book, and experience the scene. I put my hand through my hair and close my eyes and laugh at myself. I wish too many times on stupid stuff.

I read the scene quickly and decide it's time to sleep. Maybe tomorrow Dominic will make the first move to kiss me. As I close my eyes, I wish that Dominic is fine and that we'll be together for a long time. I say my name as I was already married to him and I fall asleep with a smile on my lips.

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i know this chapter was confusing maybe but hey my head is confusing hahaha =]