Sister Free (a Rooster Teeth fanfiction)

Chapter 9

Today's the day when we bury Raquel. I got out of bed lazily and headed for the shower. I turned on the shower and just stood under it. I just stood there staring at the wall. Thinking of Raquel, this is going to be one hard day.

"Jess, you in there." Ellie's voice arose me from my thoughts.

"Yeah, I'll be out in just a sec." I said quickly squeezing the bottle of shampoo I front of me into my hands. I quickly rubbed the shampoo into my hair and washed it off. I turned the shower off and stepped out. I grabbed a towel, wrapped it around myself, then grabbed another and wrapped that around my hair before opening the door. "It's all yours." I smiled weakly pointing to the shower. I walked away from the door and into my temporary bedroom. I took the plain black cocktail dress out of my temporary wardrobe and put it neatly on my temporary bed. I changed my underwear into black and then put the dress on. I smoothed it down, then noticing the stubble on my legs. Even though my hair was light and hardly noticeable, I could notice it, and things that I notice bug me big time. I walked to the bathroom, the door was empty, so I guess no-ones in there. I walked in and took out some shaving gel. I put it on my legs, and then grabbed the razor and started shaving. It was my fault she died. My fault... I looked at the razor. My fault. I took the razor from my legs and towards my wrist. I stood over the sink. My fault. I put the blade on the skin. She's dead because of me. I pulled the razor across my skin. My fault. I did the same to the other wrist. I left about five cuts on each wrists, every time the voice in my head telling me it was my fault. It was. I washed the blood off of the razor, and off of my wrist before I continued shaving my legs. After I finished shaving I washed off the razor, put it back where it came from and then checked if the coast was clear. I ran to my bedroom, making sure no-one saw my cuts. I got out a pair of silk black gloves and put them on to cover up the mess that were my wrists. The gloves came to just under my elbows. The bleeding had stopped, and everything seemed normal with me, I just had to act that way. I checked my phone for the first time this morning. A new text from Ray.

Ray~ hey, what's going on in England, can you come back to Austin, I really do miss you more than I would have imagined.

I didn't know how to reply. I couldn't live in England with the guilt that's hanging over me. I would definitely be moving to Austin, permanently. I would come back to England every so often to visit family. But not for a while yet. I know that this is going to be my last full day in England, for a while. I looked at the time, 9. She's going to be buried at 10, I better hurry up. I tossed my phone onto my bed. I quickly slipped a pair of black heels on, grabbed my black purse, threw my phone into it, and then headed downstairs. Summer was sitting in the kitchen with Ellie.

"Hi Jess." Summer said, sounding croaky.

"Hi Summer, Ellie." I nodded. I joined them at the table where a bowl of weetabix was waiting for me. I played around with it with my spoon before eating then breakfast cereal. Once I had eaten it I put it into the sink. I grabbed a glass of orange juice from the fridge and drunk it slowly. After I had put the glass in the sink, I sat in the front room, Ellie and Summer were still talking about today. I fished my phone up from my purse and tuned it on. I went onto Gatwick's website. I booked a flight to Austin at 1 today, that was the only flight for 6 days. I couldn't stay here with the guilt seeping into me.

"Jess, we need to go now." Ellie said, yet again arising me from my thoughts for the second time today.

"Okay." I said putting my phone back into my purse, putting it on silent and turning it off, so it won't go off during the burial. We all made our way out to the car. "I'm gonna sit in the back, Ellie you can sit shotgun." I said sitting in the back of the car. The whole ride there was in complete silence. How am I gonna tell them that I'm moving to Austin, permanently. They will take it understandingly under the circumstances, I hope. We soon arrived. "So who else is gonna be here?" I asked, getting out of the car.

"Just us." Summer replied, locking the car. Her parents won't be here because they died in a tragic car crash, she never mentioned any other family members, but that's not a question for me to ask, or have asked. We stood at her grave and the burial began. All throughout we were all silently crying as the priest talked.

A/N

I forgot to update yesterday, whoops, so I'm gonna be uploading now, and around 9:00pm GMT today, so double whammy, woop woop.

~theJESSter