On My Mind..

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"Ashton..," I hear my mom say as soon as I walk through the door.
Something's wrong. I speed walk into the kitchen.
"Yes mom?..," I hesitate.
"Yo-your father is out," she says.
"W-what?.. no he can't be, he still has a year," I ramble.
My father was arrested for beating my mom and I. He was also arrested for drugs.
Great. Today I was supposed to relax and chill out but now I'm terrified that he's going to show up. My mom sees the terror on my face and speaks up.
"He's not aloud in the same town as us.. so we'll be okay."
After what happened, we moved a town over to start fresh.
"So uh, how was school?," my mom asks.
"It was okay," I say.
"How about the girl you told me about?."
I look away.
"She still hasn't really noticed me," I mumble.
My mom nods.
"She will eventually."
It was an awkward silence for a bit.
"I'm.. going to be in my room," I say and start heading to the stairs.
I hear my mom sigh. Sorry mom.. I'm sorry I can't make everything better. I let out a shaky breath and sit down on my bed.
Grabbing my guitar, I begin playing it while singing softly.

"What doesn't kill you, makes you wish you were dead.
Got a hole in my soul, growing deeper and deeper.
And I can't take one more moment of this silence.
The loneliness is haunting me.
And the weight of the world's getting harder to hold up-," i was interrupted by my mother opening the door a bit.
I look up.
"Yes mom?."
She smiles a bit.
"That was beautiful.. but I was wondering if you would care for some Chinese food tonight?," she asks.
I nod and smile.
"Yes please."
My mother nods and walks out. I get up and go to my desk and grab my books.
"Should probably do my homework," I mumble to myself.
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The rest of the evening included Chinese food, a movie, a shower and sleep.

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