The New Kid

Chapter Twenty three: Love is a Bitch

There was only a week left of school, and to be honest I'm way more excited than everyone else for school to end. This school year has been insane, with Addison, the divorce, Sydney and Meghan's plan and Emily. All I wanted to do now was go on a rode trip and never come back, just run away from my problems.

I make my way into homeroom and sat where I've always sat, since day one. Addison and Emily had stopped talking ever since Emily was publicly dumped, they were always distant and only said hi if they pass by each other. Josh actually backed off of Addison and stopped flirting with her. Addison seemed more quiet now, but she was still surrounded by people.

I was debating over the week whether I should ask Addison to give me another chance and I decided I would do it at the end of the day today. I'm not sure what she will say, but I hope she will say yes. I was still in love with Addison, even after all this shit I went through with her. I couldn't forget her, I still craved Addison. I needed her, I wanted her.

Addison sat across from me, which felt like she hasn't done in a million years. I stare at her probably like a creep, because she turned around and waved to me. I waved back at her and looked up at the board quickly. During class I thought back to the time when I first met Addison. I called her over during our way to school and we walked together. I missed the days where we hung out all day and night, the late night movies, the jokes, just everything. This will be my last chance to get it all back.

The day went by really slow today and I was ready to ask Addison for my second chance. I was extremely nervous to ask her. I was scared how she would react to it. Would she be mad, sad, happy? I won't know until I ask her. I couldn't bare to watch all the guys around Addison flirting with her, especially my friends. I was ready to ask her though, I need to figure out her real feelings for me.

I found Addison at the end of the day, standing by herself on the steps in the front of the school. I got the courage and started walking over to Addison, I rehearsed what I was going to say to her while I walked over. But suddenly Joe Mackenzie walked up and pulled Addison into a kiss. I stopped dead in my tracks and felt my heart sink immediately. Addison gave into the kiss and put her arms around his neck. I turned around and started making my way down the street, to home. I knew what Addison wanted now, she wanted Joe and not me. She moved on, she wasn't going to settle on waiting like I chose to. I now know what I needed to do now, and that was move on like her. No distraction like Emily, I need to move on completely and never stress over Addison ever again.

I sat in my room for the whole night trying to convince myself that I was officially done with Addison. But I had a hard time coming to a agreement with that, so I settled with love is a bitch. I feel like I have learned a lot through the school year. I can't rely on another human being to make me happy, nor to love me. I need to make my own happiness, whether I'm single or not. Life is not all about love and relationships. Life is about doing what you love, being happy with yourself. I have notice you'll meet many kinds of people throughout life, like Emily or Addison. But now this is the end of the chapter in this part of my life, I finished it. I can now move onto the next chapter.