The New Kid

Chapter Thirteen: I don't hate you

It was almost 4:30 and Addison hasn't stepped out of her room once, the last I saw her was this morning when we had our argument. I was beginning to worry a bit about Addison, It was my fault, I got angry at first and got her riled up. . . all I wanted to do right now is to apologize to her.

I stood in front of her door and listened in to see how she was doing, I heard nothing except for the fan in her room. I tuned the door knob slowly and opened the door about an inch and looked inside, her lights were all off, the blinds were closed. I walked into her room and found her in the corner of her bed asleep, she had the bed made neatly nothing was touched. I looked around and saw her phone on the floor which is unusual because Addison was always careful about her phone and around Addison's desk, tissues laid around the floor. I walked over to Addison and nudged her gently, Addison turned over and looked at me like she was about to cry. Addison's face wasn't bright and happy like I was use to, her cheeks and eyes were red from crying, her makeup was all over her face and her hair was a complete mess. I laid down next to Addison, hoping she wasn't going to push me away and pulled her close to my chest, she didn't refuse, she put her hands on my arms and held onto them, I kissed her forehead and squeezed her body gently.

"I'm sorry" Addison said, as she turned her body facing me. I looked at her almost ready to cry and rubbed her back. This was honestly my fault.

"It's fine Addison, I was the one who acted up anyways"

Addison buried her face into my chest and grabbed onto me. I started playing with her hair, while I let little tears roll down my cheeks "Addison, I'm really sorry. Ugh you probably hate me now"

"I don't hate you" she whispered "I can't hate you. Sometimes I wish I could. I wish I could scream at you and not regret it, because I hate you" I heard the sobs coming from her, but she didn't let got, only held on tighter "But I don't. And that can be the worst part. I love you so much. God I do fucking love you, even now, even then, even this whole time you've been hiding Sydney from me. . . I still love you"

I started to cry harder and held onto Addison tighter "I'm sorry"

"I don't get why you wouldn't tell me. . . it wouldn't of matter to me"

"I was scared of what you would think. . . I didn't want you to go, because I love you"

she gripped onto me as tight as she could and whispered "I love you too"

The next morning while Addison was out with Sophia I went and talked to Alex. "How could you tell her!"

Alex turned around and rolled her eyes at me "don't yell at me Parker. I told Addison because I wasn't gonna watch your guys relationship be destroyed. Look actually she knows and doesn't care, yah so she was hurt that you wouldn't tell her any of this but-"

I walked out of Alex's room and head into the living room, I wasn't in the mood to put up with her shit. Alex followed me down and blocked me from going anywhere else "Listen Parker. you need to calm your shit, everything is fine now, actually I improved it! Be mad all you want, but if I didn't tell her there's no way in hell you and Addison were gonna make it through Meghan's fucked up plan, that's suppose to happen next week!"

I felt a wave of guilt rush over me. Alex was right, we would've been fucked without her telling Addison. Alex started to walk away but I grabbed her arm and spun her around "Alex I'm sorry, you're right. . . I just wished I knew you were going to or have it be me telling her"

I released Alex's arm and waited for a response, but instead she walked off back to her room.