Beat Still

Chapter 45: Beat Still

*Marcel's Pov*

"Babe, do you realize we only have two more weeks of school until holiday?"

I simply nodded in response and continued playing with his fingers. I always loved when Lou would lay practically on top of me, and run one hand through my hair while the other allowed me to do what I wish with it.

Oh, don't be disgusting! I just meant picking at his nails, or absentmindedly lacing our fingers together.

As much as I love lazing about with my beautiful boyfriend, I must admit that I miss his touch in... other ways.

Through all of this drama we have not really had the time to be intimate. In fact, this is the most we've touched since...why, I do not even remember.

Haha, it's funny because you actually lost your memory.

Very funny...It would seem that I have developed a sense of humour over the past few weeks.

Anyway, I would totally be lying if I did not say that I want- no, I need that spark back.

"Let the countdown begin..." I mumbled back.

His head lifted from my chest so that he could look me in the eyes. His eyebrows were scrunched, and his lips were slightly parted. In other words, he was looking at me with his signature confused face. It was adorable.

"You don't sound very excited." I removed my hand from the small of his back in order to rub my tired eyes, and shrugged.

He was right. For some reason I was not in the least bit excited. Which was more confusing for me than it was for Louis considering this was my favorite time of the year. That would explain why he seemed so concerned.

So why was I feeling so solemn? I should be running around Lou's room trying to find my present, or grabbing my notebook in order to plan out the holiday, or even suggest we begin shopping early.

But instead, here I was barely even paying attention to the beautiful creature who was curled up on top of me like a kitten.

"What's wrong, love?" His voice was high and insecure. I sat up on the bed and held Louis' waist so that he could shift onto my lap.

I sighed and tugged on the ends of my hair,"I could not tell you if I wanted to Lou. I really don't know why I am like this."

Besides being sexually frustrated like a dog in heat while also being extremely concerned about our future, and worried about Zaynie?

Oh yeah, that may be it. I was sure it would come to me if I gave it some thought. So now that I have that figured out, I need to begin my plan on how to make things better.

I watched as Louis' mouth moved rapidly with every word he spoke. Obviously I was not listening, but it was still a sight to see. Passionate Lou was my favorite Lou.

"Hello? Are you even listening, Marcel?" He poked the tip of my nose before crossing his arms with a huff. I gave him an apologetic smile.

"Sorry Lou. I was just thinking."

His face softened as he began tracing circles on my chest,"Thinking about what?" I shuddered under his touch, but chose to ignore it for now.

"I know things have been hard for us lately and we have not had much time for just us, but I want to change that." He nodded understandingly so I continued with a sigh,"And so, I wanted to invite you to spend christmas with me."

Louis laughed, no like he literally laughed directly into my face, and I could feel the blush grow on my already warm cheeks.

"What the fudge is so funny, Louis?" I glared as his hearty chuckles shook the bed.