You know I never thought it would come to this. I never thought it would end up this bad. Things don't get better..they just get worse. You can't control it either. It's just how life is. It's filled with pain and suffering. But I guess it all depends on what you do with your life. What am I even doing with my life? I've asked that question so many times but yet to find the answer. I'm trying I honestly am. I want to make something of myself. I don't want to be that fuck up...not anymore. I want to fix myself. I want to help people...I don't want them to feel the same way I do. I don't want them to go through what I did cuz after all of it. It feels like it's not even worth it anymore. Like there's no point in it, your just gonna fuck it or..your happiness will be taken away, Luke always. You know..I had a happiness once, it was nice. I'd honestly give anything to have that back but I realized it wasn't worth it. It was bound to break yet I still can't forget. I refuse to let those god damn feelings go. Like I know what's best for me but I want that instead. I just want to forget, forever. I don't want to live with that pain anymore, I can't live with it forever. I just can't, it kills me. I'm talking and thinking about it but for
nothing, I can't give it up..no matter how hard I try. I need to stop, all of it. I need to stop hiding, I need to stop faking, I need to stop messing up, I need to stop breathing in general. Things don't get much better from here do they? I just. I want a new start on everything. I want to forget everything.
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The diary of Shadow Nomi
RandomThe story of a teenage girl named Shadow. She has many issues. She is called emo by everyone. Only has a very small friend group and one friend that knows everything and has her back. She has also has created something or someone. Join her and throu...
