The Affair

Chapter 10

Chloe's POV

For the next two weeks we spent all our spare together, let's be honest, there was a lot of sex, I missed feeling like this, I miss being so happy

He started work a two days after we first hooked up, so he was gone most of the day but he came back every day to have lunch with me and didn't avoid coming home until I was asleep like Thomas often did, he wanted to see me, he was happy to see me

He spent my birthday pampering me like a princess when all I got from Thomas was a short text, how surprising

I wish Thomas could be like Ryan is

I was so happy with Ryan....but still my mind wandered

Thomas and I have been married for  five years, we have a home, a life, we have Archie, if Thomas and I split up what would happen to him? If Thomas wanted custody he'd probably get it and he'd probably take him just to spite me

And Ryan, he needs the job, Hannah needs him to have it, he talks about her so much, she's his everything, if I was to leave Thomas for Ryan then Thomas would probably fire him, I couldn't be responsible for that

What if I've made the wrong choice? What if I should've just done what I always did and be the good wife I'm expected to be

Was this affair a mistake? What if it was?

I was pulled out of my thoughts when suddenly my phone started ringing

It was Thomas, it's like he's reading my mind and that's slightly terrifying, I've barely heard from him in the last two weeks but right now he decides to call me?

What if he knows?!

"Uh hey" I speak nervously down the phone

"I'm coming home tomorrow!" He exclaims excitedly, wait what?

"Wait what?! I thought you were supposed to be there for another week" I questioned in confusion

"I decided I need to start putting you and Archie first, there's nothing for me here at this point" he tells me, I think I must be going deaf because there's no way my husband just said that, there just isn't

"Are you serious?" I question, slightly unconvinced

"Yeah, I'll back back tomorrow in time for that lunch in the park we talked about" this is just amazing, it's almost too good to be true, is it too good to be true?

But what about Ryan?

If I stay with Thomas and try to give my marriage a chance then he'll probably never speak to me again, if it works out with Thomas then maybe that's for the best but if not then what do I do? I love Ryan, but I love Thomas to, that's why I married him, it's why we have a son together

Did I just make my choice? Oh god I hate myself right now, Ryan's gonna hate me too, UGH WHY DID THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN?! WHY DID I HAVE TO FALL FOR HIM?!

Then Ryan came in while I was sat with Archie thinking about all this, he had to ask me the one question I couldn't answer didn't he?

"Chlo my apartment is ready, they finished it early, I can move out of here" he tells me excitedly, I was so happy for him but then he had to go and ruin it

"That's great!" I exclaimed but then he opened his mouth again and everything was ruined

"Come with me" he whispered

No, I wish he hadn't have said that

"Ry....I can't" I finally have to tell him, it breaks my heart but I just can't do it

A few days ago I would've said yes in a heartbeat, but I can't, I'm married, I have a family with my husband, this was all a mistake, an amazing mistake, but a mistake nonetheless

"What?" He asks, clearly hoping he'd misheard me

"I can't do it, I've thought about leaving so many times before but I just can't do it" I tell him, wiping away a few tears as I did

"You're gonna stay with him?!" Ryan exclaims and that just breaks my heart even more because I can tell he's hurt by it, but I just can't

"Archie needs his parents to be stable together, I need Archie, Thomas could take him away from me if I tried to leave him!" I defend but he seems too hurt, what have I done, I never should've let things get this far

WHY COULDN'T I JUST LEAVE THINGS ALONE?!

I wish I'd never met him, then none of this would ever have happened

This should never have happened

"You're kidding me?! You're staying with him when he treats you like this!" He yells at me in anger

I just feel like bursting into tears and never stopping

"He says he gonna change, I have to give my marriage a chance, I owe it to myself, I owe it to Thomas, I owe it to my son" I try to explain as tears begin to form in my eyes

"YOU DON'T OWE ANYONE THAT YOU'RE JUST TOO AFRAID TO TAKE THE LEAP BECAUSE GOD FORBID IT WON'T ALL GO PERFECTLY! GUESS WHAT CHLOE?! THATS LIFE!" He yells at me so much that I just don't know what to do, I know he has every right to be mad but I just can't take it

"I can't risk losing my son" I whisper, he looks at me and I can see for a second he feels guilty for yelling at me but then he comes back to why he's yelling and his face hardens again

"So what? I was just some stupid little affair to you?" He asks in frustration

"Of course not!" I exclaim, how could he think that

"Well that's sure as hell what it looks like" he hisses

"Ryan please...." I go to try and calm him down by he cuts me off

"No, I'm done with this Chloe, I'm done with you, I hope you and Thomas have a great life and whatever but stay the hell away from me, I never want to see you again" he tells me coldly

He leaves the room and heads back upstairs, I follow him all the way to the spare room and watch and he quickly packs up all his stuff, clearly intending to leave immediately

"Ryan you don't have to go straight away" I point out to him but he clearly doesn't give a shit about what I have to say anymore

"Hannah needs me, you don't" he speaks harshly, it hurts, I want to be able to say yes and run away with him but I just can't do it, I have to give my marriage one last try

"I'm so sorry" I whisper as I wipe away a few tears which had managed to escape

"I don't care" he replied, no emotion at all in his voice as he does

As he finished packing his last few things, he grabbed all his bags and walked straight past me and downstairs, I ran to catch up with him and caught him just as he was about to walk out the door

"Ryan..." I start but once again he cuts me off

"Goodbye Chloe" he says emotionlessly and then that's it

He walks out of the door and he's gone

Did I just make the biggest mistake of my life?

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But does Thomas really want to change? What do you think will happen? Do you think she'll sort it out with Thomas or not? If not will she try to go back to Ryan? Would he take her back? Xoxo