The Affair

Chapter 19

Chloe's POV

Ryan and I had a conversation and decided that I had to find out who the father was before I made any decisions

I hate that though, the thought that I'll possibly just be stuck married Thomas for probably the rest of my life if this baby's his

He's never going to know there's a possibility the baby isn't his if it turns out to be his, Ryan said he'll come with me for the DNA test

I'm kinda freaking out about that though, I mean I've not had to have one done before because obviously Archie could only have been Thomas' but I can figure out how they would do it with the baby still in me and it doesn't seem all the pleasant in my head

I really hate pregnancy, with a passion very few people could possibly understand

Before I can do anything about a paternity test though I'm gonna have to see a doctor, that means telling Thomas

Yippee! Telling the man who didn't even want to be the father of my first child that I'm having a second one

I know I could just go see a doctor by myself but that makes it so much more complicated and however much I may no longer respect or even like my husband he'd at least still fake being supportive and I really don't like the doctor visits either, all the needles and the blood tests and just the whole place in general, it just messes with my head

I spent the rest of the day trying to enjoy myself with Ryan and Hannah but it wasn't going very well

Ryan must've been able to see how unhappy I was so while Hannah was busy with something he pulled me away and out of the room so we could talk

"You know that no matter who's baby that is I'm going to support you both nonetheless right?" he asks me gently and I nod

"But if it's not yours I can't do that to you, it would be awful for you to have to be a part of this when it's not your kid wouldn't it?" I question and he shakes his head with a small smile

"I will play whatever roll you want me to happily" he tells me with a smile, how did I get so lucky?

"Thank you" I whisper, I don't understand why he's so good to me, I just don't get this

"And no matter what decision you make once you know who the dad is I will support you, you'll still always be welcome here, you can still come live with me, or if you wanna stick with him until after the baby's born or until a certain time.....or if you just want to stay with Thomas, I'll respect that and support your decision" he tells me, I don't deserve him, I really don't, he would willingly let his own heart be broken to let me do whatever I decide I want to do

I think I know what I want to do but I need the paternity test first, I can't be sure until I know

At around 3 I left and started the walk back home, Ryan offered to drive me, worried I'd catch a chill but I wanted to think, so I put my headphones in and off I went

I just needed to process everything I guess, there was a lot to process

I finally got home and Thomas came to the door to greet me, his act has gone up since his little outburst, he's worried he scared me too much, I'm not scared of him at all, I don't think anyway, I just hate him, there's a pretty big difference

"Thomas, we need to talk" I tell him slightly nervously, I'm not sure how he's gonna respond to this

"What's up babe?" He asks, yeah, like I'm buying he cares

I pull out the test and show it to him

"Wait, you're pregnant?" He asks in shock, I nod and watch his delayed reaction, clearly he has to stop and think about what the correct response is

After a quick moment for him to do that he picks me up and spins me around

I'm feeling quite worn out at this point and I know I have to keep up the loving wife act for a little while longer at the very least so I wrap myself around him and rest my head on his should, I could really use a nap

"Are you excited?" I ask because I'm a bitch and I wanna watch him squirm a little, I'm intrigued to see what lie he pulls to get out of this one

"Of course I am! That's amazing babe" he tells me, the fake happy is laughable at best, how blind was I before? Or was I just really REALLY dumb?

He sits me down on the counter and then kisses me

"Can I?" He asks gently, asking if he can touch my pretty much non existent baby bump

I nod, trying not to look as confused as I feel, he didn't actually care this much when I told him about Archie

He actually seems really happy, excited even, no, come on Chloe, it's just an act

But then again, is it possible I'm just over reading into things? I mean, I haven't noticed any other phone calls and he's come home pretty early every day, he hasn't had a chance to sneak off except this weekend but I can see from all the work that's out and the surroundings that he's been working since I left, is it possible he's actually excited about this?

He places a hand gently on my stomach and for some reason it gives me butterflies

"I promise you honey, I'm gonna be there for everything this time, I'm not gonna miss a thing" he tells me and now I can't tell if that's real or not, I'm so confused

What if he seriously does want this baby?

If it's his and he actually wants to be there then I don't know what I'm gonna do, I want to be with Ryan, be he's Archie's dad and if he's this baby's dad too then what do I do?

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Has Thomas really changed? Is she overreacting to things or is he still up to his old tricks? What should she do and who's baby do you want it to be?

Sorry this update is so late I only just got back from watching Sabrina open for The Vamps which SHE KILLED BTW!! She also performed two songs with them and her opening set was the longesttt!! I'm so happyyyy Xoxo