good vibes

i'm so done

let me tell you a story

me yesterday:

my last chapter was on HIM, or his infernal majesty, that band i started to get into these past few weeks. and now i learn that they broke up a few weeks ago. i'm actually really upset, like, this is not okay.

i've known about the band for years and then when i finally start actually getting into them, it's a month after they announced their retirement. i'm so fucking done with 2017.
they're doing a farewell tour but i'm sure it won't be possible for me to go. i've been a real low-key fan for so long i'm kicking myself. when i finally start listening to them they go and fucking retire. i'm salty. salty with tears.

i am literally so done with the music scene. whenever i find a band that means something to me or that i connect with, they break up or retire. i used to look forawrd to concerts and now i look forward to the sweet release of death.

i'm honestly very upset though, joking aside and all. i don't think it's particularly that HIM itself broke up, but that fact that another band broke up. all these bands i enjoy and admire and it's really heartbreaking to see them retire or breakup or otherwise die. i'm really sad about all my bands breaking up, even ones i've only been an offical fan of for a week.

tl;dr: HIM broke up, i'm upset at the music industry in general

me today:

t r i g g e r e d

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on another note the sun is finally shining after weeks of rain and i'm severely triggered. i went outside and nearly passed out and i can't play guitar or anything because it reflects off eveything and blinds me. i have a crack in a curtain at the moment and it's giving me a headache.

i love how i complain about the rain and when it's finally sunny i hate it.