Tris & Christina Oneshots {DIVERGENT}

Loosening Up

I wrote this in third-person present-tense, which works better than past-tense for me. This is also smutty but not too erotic. It does include masturbation.
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T H I R D-P E R S O N
Tris has always been a bit too curious for her kind. The Abnegation are taught to never question much of anything, and just go with life without thinking of themselves, but Tris left it for a reason. She thinks this was one of them.

Sex and reproduction aren't discussed much in Abnegation. It is kept hushed, never to be spoken about, although Tris knows they do hold the value that sex should never be used for "selfish" pleasure. It is to be used only when one wants to birth a new human. She knows, somewhere, that it's only nonsense. People have sex for other reasons. Don't they?

Regardless of what the true reason behind sex is, Tris is confused on how it works. She feels childish and immature that she doesn't understand. The Abnegation never taught her anything, only that it is only used to reproduce. No one talks about what it feels like, what happens during it, and how to do it. She's lost.

Tris has been in Dauntless for all of three weeks. She's being pushed to her physical limits, and it doesn't help that she has been getting strange urges to let her hands roam her body until she feels something she enjoys.

She's conflicted on what to feel about it. Should she feel ashamed of it or embrace it as a new beginning in her life?

It must be something natural in the very least. It's like her brain is telling her to do it although she's unsure of how or why or if it's okay to. It's encouraging her, making her hands travel south, but she fights it. Uncertainty wins.

She wants to talk to someone, preferably a female, about this. She doesn't want to be confused and lost her entire life. She wants to experience something, but she's afraid. What if she asks someone and they laugh because she knows nothing? How humiliating would that be?

But she takes a chance. When she sees Christina enter the dormitory during dinner when it's empty, she stops her. Christina is a good friend of Tris's. Maybe she will be willing to give some nonjudgmental advice, despite her being from Candor. She is Tris's first true friend. Do friends talk about this?

"I was wondering if I could ask you something," Tris says, not meeting Christina's eyes. "I don't know who else to talk to about this."

"Yeah, of course," Christina says as she plops down on her bed, next to Tris's, facing her. She offers a warm smile.

Tris's cheeks flush red and she casts her gaze downward at her lap. She fiddles with her fingers, nervously chewing her lip. She isn't sure of how to bring the question across. It's very taboo and private, not something you blurt out to people whenever you feel like it.

"So. . .I know I'm a Stiff, and I don't know much about how the body works," Tris starts, being sure to blame her upbringing first. "But lately, I've been getting feelings to. . .touch myself. I don't know what sex is or what it means. Can you help me?"

Tris doesn't look at Christina, for she is too ashamed. But Christina smiles at her, like this is perfectly normal. She moves next to Tris and rests a hand on her shoulder.

"Tris, it's okay," Christina says reassuringly. "I know Abnegation is very concealing. It isn't your fault that you have questions."

Tris nods but doesn't look at her. The shame is too much to bear.

"So what do you want to know first?" Christina asks.