Too Far Away

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When my mom told me that she planned to transfer me into another school, I disagreed at first. Because why not, right? I already have my friends and my boyfriend in my former school but one day, malalaman ko na lang na iiwan ko na pala sila without giving them any reasons why. I have no choice but to agree with her na lang. Alangan namang makipag-argue ako sa kanya, eh she's the one who's paying for my tuition fees naman kaya hinayaan ko na lang.

I once had the love of my life. Once. He's Aidan Caleb Salazar. He got all of my first. First love, first boyfriend, first hug, first cuddle buddy, and first kiss. Okay naman kami. Both of our families knew about our relationship and we were living happily for a year, pero hindi ko alam kung bakit isang araw, iniwan niya na lang ako bigla. Nagulat na lang ako na nakikipag-break na siya sa harap ko mismo. 'Di ako makapagsalita noon pero tuloy-tuloy yung daloy ng luha sa mga mata ko. Nung makakuha na ako ng lakas ng loob na magsalita, tinanong ko siya kung bakit. But he just told me that he doesn't love me anymore that's why he's breaking up with me that time. Tapos after a month, nalaman ko na pumunta na siyang California with his family. Doon na daw sila titira sabi ng mga kaibigan niya.

Masakit.

Mabuti nga at bakasyon na noong mga oras na iyon. Kasi almost two months din akong umiyak ng umiyak dahil sa pang-iiwan niya sa akin.

Kaya sa huli, naging pabor na sa akin na lumipat na lang ng school.

I want a new surrounding.

New people to meet.

New classmates.

New friends.

In short, a new life.

Just for once, I want a life without feeling any pain. If that's even possible. I hope he doesn't come back. Because if he will? I don't know what to do and to say anymore. Almost a year had passed but...

It still hurts, you know?

For me, it's hard to forgive but it's even harder to forget.