Business as Usual~c.h.w

5. Loaded.

Although this meeting is everything but productive, we decided to use one our longer polished mahogany tables for this little occasion.

Chae is at one end of the table and I'm at the other. Apollo, who has been acting kind of distant in a way, is seated beside me. No matter what people think, Apollo isn't as distant as she seems. She has just learned to cover her emotions. All little too well.

Wonho, who so happens to be sitting next to Chae, has been shooting her worried looks sense I actually registered them. I assume they were their before.

The rest of the guys are randomly settled by each other besides Namjoon and Seokjin, who always sit together.

"Okay, so collaboration project. I assume you do know what that is. Because you just seem so. collaborative." Chae says from his seat at the other end of the table with so much sarcasm I can feel it.

Glaring at him with laser beams that i wish would sear that smirk off his face. I ignore the snickers of amusement from around the table.

"Shut it, Chae." I respond with what should've been venom but instead came off as plead.

"No." He says with a sassy brow raise.

"Damn you. Collaboration project everyone." I start as I get out of the chair I was formerly seated in and sit on top of the table with my legs in a criss cross position.

Apollo props her head in her hands as she takes her eyes off of a certain black haired COO, then looks at me with her brows raised. Her eyes look so tired and dull, but there's sadness flying through them. I haven't actually looked at her in a few days because I've been busy with work and we've been on out own.

Apollo.. who broke you?

"You know, you two are matching right?" Minhyuk's voice drags me out of my thoughts and back to reality.

Fixing my expression, I look over to where he's gesturing between H and I.

"Kodak moment!" Seokjin exclaims as he pulls out a baby pink Polaroid camera from who knows where.

"You're so fucking sentimental." I hear Tae groan from beside Jungkook, who is snickering quietly.

"Watch your damn language." Seokjin shoots back.

With that everyone let's out a laugh. In that moment the flash of the Polaroid goes off.

"As, I was saying. Collaboration. So, this is for the tech leads mainly-" I continue while trying to ignore the wavering and pain in my skull. It suddenly happens and I think it's a product of multiple things.

"Ayyyee." Everyone not in the tech divisons chorus.

"Shit, let me relax then." Jungkook says as he kicks back in his chair and pulls out his phone.

Taehyung for some reason pulls out a deck of cards and starts to shuffle them. He then meets eyes with Jooheon and Changhyuk.

"Game?" He asks playfully.

"I'm down." Changhyuk says while sitting up in his chair.

"Hells yeah." Jooheon responds while pushing his sleeves up.

The headache is only getting worse and I can practically feel my mood slipping or well what little mood I was faking. Taking a quick deep breath and looking up at the ceiling, I try to rebound before anyone notices.

"Anyway, so that means it's you, Namjoon and Kihyun. This is circled around you two. We need to try something new in the cellular advancements unit. Take a few risks. If you two need anything come to us, ofcourse." I explain while gesturing to Apollo, Hyungwon, Wonho, and I.

Namjoon directs the conversation towards Kihyun. Wonho gets up and pulls up a chair beside Apollo. He engages her in conversation, Minhyuk seems to have Hyungwon's attention, and the rest of the guys are still absorbed in their previous activities and Jungkok has joined in on the card game.

No one's paying attention to me now or I atleast hope they aren't.

Quietly slipping off of my spot on the table, I walk back towards my office and slightly cradled the side of my head. It seems like all of the nerves have just been twisted and jump started and I'm nauseated. I should've known. I felt it creeping up.

I make my way back into my office and don't even bothering opening the curtains nor turning on a light. I just shut my door, but before I can, Yoongi stops it.

"Lay down. Here." He says as he puts what seems like two pain pills in my palm and hands my a glass of raspberry lemonade. Not even gonna and how he ended up with that.

"Thanks." I mutter as lay on the couch. I'm so glad I got this thing put in here.

"Didn't sleep again, did you?" He he more states than asks because he knows the answers.

I shake my head while turning on my side.

"You-" I hear Yoongi's voice start but is interrupted by knocking.

"What?" He says.

I register the click of the door as I peek my head up to see who it is. Fuck.

"Kana, call me, if you need anything. I'll continue the rest of the train wreck out here." Yoongi says while ruffling my hair then gently closing the door behind him.

No, don't leave me with him right now. My defenses are always lessened when I'm like this.

"Are you okay? Wait. Scratch that. What's wrong?" Hyungwon stumbles over his words while trying to find the right ones.

Sitting up and immediately knowing it was a bad mistake because I almost puked and fainted all at once. I try to play it off with a shrug.

"Don't lie. Stop acting." He says with perseverance evident in his voice.

"I'm no-" I start to retort until he cuts me off.

"Yes, you are. You know it and I know it." He sighs while leaning back in the chair.

"You don't know anything about me." I defend while trying to nit.cuo my head in my hands.

"I know that you act and that you're not okay. I know that you don't hate me like you act like you do. I also know that you just want someone to actually notice." Hyungwon lists out while I try to hide what I think in my facial expression.

He.. he doesn't know me though..how?

Dragging my hands down my face, I stand up and try to not let how dizzy I feel show. I take the pills Yoongi gave me then walk out of my office like I didn't hear Hyungwon or see him.

He follows me and opens mouth again. Turning to him before we get closer to the group.

"I know that you aren't heard. I know that you don't want any of this and I know you can't handle me." I say low enough for him to hear and to get my point across.

I walk back into the meeting room. Yoongi and Jimin are first ones to notice we're back considering they were only in a conversation with themselves.

Hyungwon walks in and looks at me like he is about to say something else. Before he can I just subtly shake my head. Not here. Leave me alone.