Business as Usual~c.h.w

6. Loaded.

Today was the definition of stressful. I learned or more so noticed about five things today.

One, she's not okay.

By she, I mean Apollo and okay really means that she's practically dying inside. Yet, I don't know what in particular is making her like this, obviously she doesn't want to be here and she doesn't want to be forced into a marriage.

Wait.. forced. I still haven't actually gotten to know Jiho and apparently I'm not the only one that sees something wrong with him. Even Wonho thinks he's sketchy. I swear of his life if he did or is doing something to her to make her be like this, I will end him.

Actually, that takes priority. I need to look into more about the jackass aka Jiho.

Two, my job fucking sucks.

Yes, I knew this but really it wasn't valid. I notices more so today than ever because I felt like shit and still do.

Three, Wonho isn't all goofy and careless in actual board meetings.

He's more confident and athouritve when at the meetings. Which seems be a good balance with Hyungwon. Wonho also blares off that arua of "we're badass and we know it", whenever he has to deliver a proposal.

Four, Hyungwon is smooth and persuasive.

Through out the entire meeting when the rest of the board was trying to pun his idea in a corner, he could talk himself out of it so smoothly you would think they were the ones being accused. He delivers his messages and veiw points in such a way that basically screams "You people are fucking stupid, just shut up and agree", yet he does it with such a smile tgat it seems like a compliment.

I can't help but think that smile was trained over time. I can tell from personal experience.

Wonho and Hyungwon are definitely a badass duo. I see how they've kept up with Apollo and I. They have a very similar dynamic to my cousin and I. It's obvious the u understanding is there also.

Five, I'm lost.

I'm lost in my thoughts. I'm lost in my mind. I've lost my dreams. I've lost my wants. Ive lost me.

I'm lost in my parents desires. I'm lost in how I actually feel about Hyungwon. It's only been a few days sense I've met him and he's already making me think. He seems to be able to figure me out faster than the normal person and my defenses don't seem to care him.

Yet, it's dangerous. I could never actually invest time in him. My parents are fucking insane and so are his. Mine hate him and just want me to you with him so that this little company will have no one in it's way. His parents probably want to same.

But, I'm not going to do it. I just want him to stay away from me. There's no way I would purposely hurt him. Peoples' feelings are not something to be played with.

Instead of heading back to my place, I decided to go to Jungkook and Tae's. They live together because Tae apparently doesn't want to be alone or away from the light that is Jungkook as he puts it. Either way when I arrived at their house which is big and roomy yet screams Jungkok and Taehyung all at the same time. They just greeted me with the usual "aayyeee".

Now, we're just laying on the floor of their living room with phineus and freb playing in background.

"Where's sir grumpy pants?" Taehyung suddenly asks while finishing the rubics cube he started approximately 15 minutes ago.

"Who?" I ask with my eyes closed then realisation hits me.

"Ohhhh, Yoongi! He's probably asleep or with Jimin." I answer casually.

"Sounds about right. Didn't Apollo stay at the office?" Kookie voices out from where he was stacking Oreos on his shirt.

"Yes, she did." I respond with a yawn.

As soon as I do that Tae's head snaps towards me and Jungkook sits up.

"Your ass didn't sleep at all yesterday or today. Did you?" Tae says as stands up and dusts imaginary dust off his shirt.

I just shake my head in response and Jungkook extends his hand while shaking his head in disapproval.

"Welp, you are tonight. I don't care if I have to lock you in that bed, you're sleeping." Jungkook states and Tae starts to laugh at I assume Jungkook statement.

"Yeah, yeah. Whatever. Move.. and thanks." I slowly says as I walk towards one of the unused rooms in their house. I probably still have some clothes and shit here from the last time so that's no problem.

Once, I lay down, I realize just how shitty I feel. Oh, well it'll pass.