BREATHE. || [sequel to Behind The Shadows.]

Chapter 7

Avery's P.O.V.

'Bye sweetie.'Violet..or my mother waves me when we leave the cemetery and she keeps my number and promises to see me again tomorrow,somehow I can't refuse her so I promise to see her too and our ways separate.
When I manage to get home Ethan is sleeping on the couch,I go up in my room and I take the blanket and go down to cover him,but when I do that he opens his eyes.
'Sorry,didn't want to wake you up.'I mutter.
'No I wasn't that asleep.'He opens his eyes widely and sits up.
'Where were you?'He asks.
'Cemetery.'I say quietly,I'm not sure if I should tell him about what happened.
'Oh.'Is just all he manages to say.
'Avery I wanted to tell you something.'
Ethan starts.
'Wait..before you start..I have to tell you something too.'I cut him off.
'Okay.'He gives me a worried look because I probably look nervous.
'I know it's hard to believe but I think I..remembered everything..and there's also something you should know..'
'You remember?That is amazing babe!'He almost shouts with happiness and hugs me,I hug him back.
'Wait..there was a woman on the cemetery..I went up to my parents graves and I met a woman there..She said she was my mother.'I say quietly.
'What?I thought your parents..?'He is clearly confused,he gives me a mad look.
'I'm not mad Ethan,I saw her and she told me she was my mother.'I say.
'And whoever that was you believed her?'He almost laughs at me.
'If you saw her..the likeness was unbelievable..we looked like a lot.'I whisper,Ethan shakes his head.
'I don't know..I don't think you should believe this thing like..like this easily.'Ethan says.
'Ethan you don't understand she looked like me and she told me that her sister raised me because she didn't have the money to have me..The parents I lost,weren't my actual parents,and Eddie..he was my cousin I guess..She told me that her sister couldn't have a baby at first and that was the only reason why she agreed to keep me.'I explain it to him but he still seems confused and his face says he doesn't believe me everything.
'Avery I know you want to believe this and I don't blame you because you really deserve to have a mother and I want you to be happy but I think you shouldn't trust anyone like this.'
'Fine I get it,but you know when you really feel something and you have that little bird inside you telling that she may be telling the truth,I know it's hard to believe and I feel like I am in some fairy tale,but I an going to take a DNA test soon so we can see the truth.'I tell Ethan and he breathes heavily.
'This is all so messed up..'He mutters.
'What is so messed up?'I raise my brows.
'You remembering everything,your mother,my fucking nightmares and now my dad..'
'But what about your dad?'
'He was diagnosed with cancer Avery,I am so fucking lost right now..I don't know what to do,my life is getting messed up day by day and you are the only happy thing that has happened to me.'His eyes are watery,I take his arm and put my head on his chest.
'I'm so sorry E,I hope he'll be okay.'I comfort him.
'And it's just not him,I can't sleep at night,my nightmares are torturing me..'
'Do you want to tell me what are they about?'I ask him.
'I..I see that day..Every night I try to sleep and it's all I see..'
'What is it you see Ethan?'
'Us..fighting and then me telling you terrible things and the consequences of it..that god damned building..I can't just get it out from my head..imagine what would happen if I had lost you on that day?!What would I do then?..'
'Hey calm down,everything is okay,I'm here and I'm healthy.'I take his hand in mine and kiss it,he suddenly sits up in front of me,looking straight in my eyes.
'But I've hurt you so bad..'His eyes are full of guilt and I hate him seeing this way and blaming himself for everything.
'Ethan it was my decision to do it and you shouldn't blame yourself for it,I am the one who should pay for my stupid behavior.'
'No Avery,I know when I make a mistake.I feel it.I tear myself apart.I lose sleep and because I hurt you,I hurt me too.'I can't take his words anymore,so I pull him closer and kiss him gently.
The kiss is full of beautiful pieces of love and passion,it is so gentle and peaceful,like a warm summer evening.
'Remember everything will be okay.'I tell him when we pull away from the kiss.His beautiful hazel eyes are shining from the little drops of tears and I can't stop myself when I take his face in my hands and kiss his adorable eyes,he secretly smiles and kisses my nose.I swear I am in love with him with all my soul.
'I love you E.'I say and mean it, I kiss him one more time.
'I'm a big mess Avery,but this mess loves you endlessly.'His words are like a medicine which can cure everything.
We go up in my bedroom and cuddle,then sleep because we felt very tired,both: emotionally and physically.
That night all I dreamt was peace..a big beautiful green valley,with a blue sky and a rainbow,Ethan and I were laying on the grass and looking up to the sky,he was holding my hand and the best thing about it was that our love felt true and strong.

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sorry for the short chapter :( but this week was very busy school week so i apologize for it.

let me know if you liked this chapter,lots of love ❤️