Into you (a klaine and phan fanfiction)

Chapter 7

"Kurt" Dan sighed as he pulled away his companion. He was about to burst into tears.

"I...I have a boyfriend." He chose these out of all the words that were floating in his mind. He could have sayed that he didn't have feelings for him, but didn't want to hurt him in any way because he was the first true friend he had ever had. He could have sayed that their relationship was too important to be affected with romance. But he didn't.

"Dan, I'm so sorry. I don't know what hit me. I didn't want to....it's just..." Kurt covered his rosey mouth with his pale fingers, shame in his eyes and grief in his heart.

"It's okay. I know" No. Dan didn't understand. Friendship always came first for him and, although he tried, he didn't get why Kurt didn't think about it before freeing his instincts, he spoiled everything in the name of lust.

Dan got in his bed, covering his head with the sheet, and gave his back to Kurt. He didn't want to talk about it any longer.

"You have never talked about him. Well, you barely talked about your life in general, so..." Kurt was now talking nervously, trying to save the situation.

"We met last year in a bar, he was very nice, offered me a ride home and then we started dating" Dan explained, keeping it short.

"What's his name?" he asked

"Blaine" Dan answered, he couldn't fake being asleep now.

They remained silent for a while, the both of them thinking about how their friendship, the best relationship they had had in their whole life was now damaged, maybe irredeemably.

"Do you love him?" Kurt asked, abruptly breaking the wall of silence they were slowly building.

Dan didn't know how to answer. He never profoundly questioned his feelings towards Blaine. He enjoyed Blaine's company of course, and someone to take care of him. He liked his caresses, his kisses, his cuddles; and sex, sex was awesome with Blaine. But did he love him? Did he want to spend his life with him? Was he the only one? Could he imagine being with him forever? Did he love Blaine or the idea of having a significant other?

"He was there when noone was" Dan opted for this answer.

And now that he realized that, was their relationship over or maybe, within the years, he would fall in love with him? Did he have to tell Blaine?

"It's not what I asked." Kurt sayed, suddenly realizing he was only making it worse.

"Goodnight, Kurt. Let's forget about tonight" Dan asserted, resting his head on the pillow.

"I'm so sorry" Kurt whispered, warm tears streaming down his porcelain face. Wetting his slightly rosey cheeks, his subtle dry lips and his defined jaw, just to fall down his neck and to stop there, ending their quest.

Dan's mind was travelling to the night when he first met Blaine. He didn't remember much, he knew he was very drunk, drunk and blue.

He remembered hopelessly crying in the gay bar at the end of the street, sobbing at every shot and yelling at everyone who tried to get near him. His heart broken one more time.

Blaine was the only one who stayed, who offered him a ride home and checked on him the day after. Their relationship worked. No big fights, none of them wanted something serious. But Blaine might have wanted something more than that. A mature relationship. And Dan couldn't offer him that, he wasn't meant for love, maybe he wasn't even meant for happiness.

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Do I sound redundant with all this friendship thing? (Please I'm in desperate need of feedback)