A few days passed and I rarely came out of my room when the members were home. Most of the time I invented excuses to not let them notice my absence and coincidentally they were most busy during those days.
Strangely I seemed depressed yet I wasn't, at least on the inside I was doing my best to get these feelings back while fighting the urge to want Hoseok more.
I remember once I was tempted to ignore his texts too but didn't, like, that'd be too much.
Why am I avoiding him anyways? I should simply let myself get consumed by this complicated love, I shouldn't even care anymore. I need to just give it all and live these moments spent with him to the fullest.
But something inside me was afraid of the aftermath, the consequences, the effects, the results.
Maybe I was understanding a little bit more about this thing called 'love'.
OH MY GOD JESSIE STOP It's not as drammatic as you're making it. Now just go out of this damn room and enjoy their company, simple, my conscious scolded me and to a certain point I agreed. It's useless to beat myself like this when literally nothing has happened.
It was around 9pm when I decided to head out for fresh air to clear my thoughts and suddenly I got caught only when I was about to step outside the door.
"Are you going out?" Hoseok, the most unwanted person in that moment questioned, receiving a nod from me; although I was tempted to answer sarcstically.
"ya" he pointed his index finger in a reproaching way. "you know it's dangerous at this hour"
Yea I was of his opinion and shrugged while nodding with an 'I know' face.
"yet you still wanna go out?" he asked as if he was my dad.
I was slightly done over his over-protective attitude so I replied to him in sign language, which he, including the other members, had learned pretty quick and knew most of the basic things thanks to me. 'yes, of course. I can't?'
"no" he instantly replied with a poker face.
I stomped my feet on the ground, contorting back with a 'why'.
"then tell me why you're going out"
This time I took my phone.
Me: WHAT THE FUCK
Me: STOP BEING SO OVER-PROTECTIVE
Mr Jung: wELL IM SORRY FOR BEING WORRIED ABOUT YOU
Me: it's NOT LIKE IM GONNA DIE
Mr Jung: WHAT IF THEY KIDNAP YOU OR STUF LIKE THAT
Me: now seriously though
Me: who would kidnap ME
Me: pfft
Mr Jung: shut up and tell me why you're going out so Ill accompany you and this discussion will end here
Me: To kidnap someone, will you come with me now?
Mr Jung: it depends on who
Me: kumamon
Mr Jung: nop go by yourself
I involuntarily cuckled rather loud and Mr Jung in person stared back while having an admiring expression.
I knew he was having one of those moments where the boy is mesmerised by a small trait of the girl and stays like that without even blinking for minutes.
How I knew? Hoseok wasn't blinking either.
Suddenly a pang of emotions hit me pretty hard so I waved him bye and without listening to his calls got out of a prison I had created for myself.
"I didn't grow you like this." I heard him mumble next to me once he catched up. "Aish why are you such a rebel?"
I was grinning from ear to ear for some reason, probably because of his proximity.
His hair was a mess and that made him freaking attractive.
The evening breeze was quiet chilly, making me shiver from cold.
Neither Hoseok nor me had any sweaters, for me a sleeveless top and he was wearing a long sleeved one, well yea I was unlucky.
In a corner of the street I saw some drunk people, like literally so drunk they were lying down while mumbling stuff like "ya did you see that elephant just fly??" and the other one replied "no it was a hippo" and so on bickering over inexistent things.
As we were walking closer, still keeping our utmost distance from them, Hoseok put an arm over my shoulder, grabbing very tightly and cautiously hid me with his tall figure, so from sideways, I wasn't visible.
My cheeks spontaneously heated up and my mind wasn't functioning well.
Just when we were the closest I had to, I just had to stumble and fall down.
I was mentally cursing in all the languages possible as Hoseok helped me get up, I didn't even dare look at his face.
Only after getting up I understood he was hiding me behind his back as one of the drunkards were trying to pick a fight with him.
OH GOD WHY
"Hey that's my girlfriend what is she doing with you" the old man said.
I kind of pitied him but he was disgusting me at the same time.
"Dude she's not your girlfriend. You're mistaking her for someone else" Hoseok replied rather strongly.
"Ya why are you cheating on me again huh" this time the stranger referred to me.
I was hella scared ok, I admit.
I wanted to tell J-hope to run away but how was I supposed to do that, I couldn't even speak.
I pulled a corner of his shirt and when he turned his head as the man was trying to peek over still talking nonsense, I mouthed to run.
He slightly nodded and grabbed my wrist.
The boy hadn't told me if he would've given me any signal or not but his grip was getting tighter when suddenly I felt like he was about to run, and so did I.
Our timing was totally perfect but the drunk man was still trying to chase after us.
After running for half an hour, we both got further away from the dorm and sat in a park.
I sat on the humid grass as he wondered what I was doing, later decided to sit next to me.
"What would you've done if I wasn't here? Huh?" the boy complained.
I decided to not answer and smiled to myself as I enjoyed his company while admiring the shimmering stars above our heads.
"Ya what are you smiling for" his face was a little red which made me blush too.
Why is he freaking blushing anjdvdjdjdvjsjs
I laid down, feeling the earth slowly and lazily move. Hoseok followed my movements and did the same, although I wondered if he could feel the exact feelings as me.
"Uhm Jiji" he broke the quiet silence surrounding us like a barrier from the external world.
The trees were the only listeners of his confession as the sky was the witness to our conversation.
He didn't wait for my answer and continued.
"I think I like you"
