Not Close Enough (A Shoey Fanfic)

Chapter 2 - Realization

Shane's P.O.V

I cant sleep. Joey went to bed over an hour ago. Its midnight and im laying on the couch. I cant deal with it. I don't want to deal with it. Theres only one thing I know how to deal with it. I grab a knife from the kitchen and go into the bathroom. I sit down on the floor and pull up my shirt. Its easier if I do my stomach so its not that suspicious. I start to cut. Then I start crying and the deeper I go the harder I cry.

Joey's P.O.V

I wake up to the sound of crying. I walk down the stairs and into the living room. Shane isn't on the couch. I panic. Where is Shane! I run to the bathroom where I hear the crying. I try and open the door but I cant.

Me: Shane! Shane please answer me! Please what are you doing?"

I start crying.

Shane: I cant. I cant handle it anymore.

I could barely hear what he was saying.

Me: Shane open the door well get through this together!

He opens the door and I look in and see blood every where even on him. I grab him and hug him. He winces so I pull back and look at him. His stomach is covered in blood. Shane why?

Me: OH MY GOD SHANE!

I grab a towel and wipe off all the blood on his hands and take away the knife. He sits on the toilet and I wet a clean part of the towel and dab at his stomach.

Me: Shane why would you do something as stupid as this?

Shane's P.O.V

I knew he would judge me.

Me: I couldn't handle it. Im sorry.

He bandages me and cleans up the rest of the blood and walks me to his room.

Joey: Thank god you didn't do it too deep.

Me: Im sorry.

Joey: Its ok.

Me: Im sorry joey.

I look at joey. He keeps telling me that im okay but I don't know if I am.

Joey: Come on lets just sleep and well handle it in the morning.

We lay down next to each other. I close my eyes and that day when I kissed joey on dare the dawson pops up. I open my eyes fast. Why would that come to me. I start to become aware of me and joeys body. Hes warm and he sleeps like an angel. STOP! I am not gay!

Joey's P.O.V

Ive been thinking about shane since we got into my bed. Ive been fully aware of our bodies. I realized I cant stop thinking about him. I think...Im in love with shane. But he cant be in love with me he was obviously devastated over lisa. I turn around and look at shanes back. He has the most beautiful body. Its so perfect. The way his back goes up and down when he breathes.

Shane's P.O.V

I can feel joey watching me. It makes me feel excited. OH MY GOD! Im getting a boner! No no no no no no no I just cant. Why would I get a boner? I Then realized I LOVE JOEY!