ITS 11:46pm April 19,2017
Hey guys. Whats up? How have you been while ive been away. sorry i havent posted in a while. My life was actually looking up and i was happy. I thought this time it would last longer, but it all crashed down on top of me. He's gone again for the whatever number time. He left me here alone again. But this time its worse than any other time before. He left on his own free will and blocked me out of his life on propose this time. He chose to leave me behind. He knows how i feel about him about our friendship and he just left me here by myself. After all we been through he left on propose. Thats what hurts the most he knows me better than anyone and I know him better than anyone or so i thought he knows this hurts me. I believe he hasnt even thought of me since he left my house that day. I don't understand it he was here we were best friends. Then he leaves and disappears without a trace. The strange thing is that if there would have been enough room in his moms car i would have left with him, but there wasnt and he left. I wish i would have known that he was gonna do this i would have hugged him said good bye and tried to leave with him, but i just let him get out of the car a leave. That was over a month ago an still no word from him, but what hurts the most is that he probably hasnt even thought once about me. He dosent care about me. Everything was all a lie. None of it was true. He just used me an left. I will give him one last chance if he even wants that but if he hurts me like this again. IM DONE. He... he.. he was the best thing in my life. My rock to living. I thought he cared about me and if i gave up so would he but he dosent care he never cared. He was my best friend if everything we did and talked about and said and felt if all of that was fake and a lie. How could i believe anyone else could be serious about everything. I trusted him with my happiness sadness love hate i trusted him with the thought i could always count on him to never leave me to always be there but he betrayed me and is gone again on propose more than likely forever.
Sadly Yours,
Kole Cordell
