My Best Man || 2jae

[03]

Jaebum:

I didn't expect Youngjae to kiss me. His lips were on mine in not even a second and at first I didn't do anything because I was completely taken by surprise. It felt good.

I just couldn't stop myself from kissing him back. His lips were warm, soft and moved against my own in a smooth rhythm. He leaned above me and his hands were tangled in my hair while I placed my hands on his hips.

I hadn't kissed anyone beside Mina during the last years and hell, it felt so extremely good to kiss someone else after such a long time. And I didn't even care if this person was Youngjae. I just wanted to enjoy this right now.

One of my hands travelled over his back until I let it stay on his on his butt while his were still playing with my hair. He softly bit my bottom lip and sucked it into his mouth for a short moment before I finally pulled away.

The younger's dark eyes were filled with many emotions and he bit his lip while looking at me. "You know we shouldn't do this." I mumbled, staring at his lips. "You don't look like you want this to stop." He whispered.

God, he was so right. I definitely didn't want to stop now but my head told me that I had to. My mind had come back and stopped me from whatever would had happened between us if we had kept on going.

His cheeks were red and his lips were a little swollen from kissing. I didn't knew he could so... so... sexy. It took all my strength to not kiss him right again. I closed my eyes for some seconds and took a deep breath.

"I should go now." I whispered, trying to avoid to look at his pink lips. I could still feel their touch on my own and I knew that I probably couldn't hold back anymore if I wouldn't go as long as I could control myself.

He slowly nodded and got up from me. I stood up and walked onto the hallway to check my appearance before I went home to Mina. My lips were red from our kiss, I was blushing and my hair was messy.

"I'm sorry for what happened." Youngjae stood beside me and helped me with my hair. "It's alright. Don't worry about it." I gave him a smile. He shouldn't feel bad for doing this. I knew he felt bad because of Mina but he didn't have to.

It was just a little kiss so why should I act like this was a big drama or even wrong? It didn't feel wrong at all. Youngjae and I had a strong bond and kissing each other could also be a way to show sympathy for another, right?

"You're sure it's alright?" He asked again and I gave him a small kiss on his cheek. "I'm sure, sunshine." I gave him a long hug before I placed another kiss on his cheek. "Bye JaeJae." I smiled and left his house.

I slowly sat down on the driver's seat of my car. My head was full of different thoughts and I tried my best to organize them a bit. But that wasn't as easy as it sounded. I was completely confused.

Mina and I had been dating for years and I had never thought about anyone else and now? First, I had seen my best friend naked, secondly I had stared at him and lastly, I nearly made out with him! With a man! I was straight!

I didn't blame Youngjae for kissing me. He was into men so maybe I just looked kissable to him. In the end, it didn't change the fact that I had completely enjoyed it. But could a single kiss really change my feelings or even my sexuality?

But maybe it was just something else. A weird tension because of the hug we shared before or anything like that. I couldn't really explain but actually I didn't even need to know why we kissed because at the moment, I had another problem.

Mina. When I got home, I would have to tell her that I didn't wanted to marry her that early. At least, that was what I should do. But was I really able to? I knew she just loved me and wanted to marry me as soon as possible.

I didn't want to hurt her just because I got a little scared now. All men got a little bit afraid when women talked about "forever". So maybe my worries were just normal and I shouldn't start making a problem when there was no need to.

After five minutes sitting in my car, I finally decided to drive home. Hopefully, the next months would help me to get used to the thought of marrying Mina. I shouldn't worry? She was my big love and I wanted to spend my life with her. Right?

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