Why is it that some people are so impossibly hard to let go of? How is it that we can tolerate so much that we'd never allow from anyone else, from this one person?
No matter what you do, no matter what you say, I can't walk away. Sometimes it seems like nothing could be enough for me to let you go.
Why do I still hold on?
Why does a piece of me hold on to the constant hope of who I know you could be?
No matter what you've put me through, it hasn't been enough for me to throw in the towel. It hasn't been enough for me to leave.
It's like an addiction. No matter how far I go, or how much progress I make, just the smallest dose of you can set me right back.
It can send me right back into the whirlwind of your chaotic life. It can send me right back to the place that brings me the most happiness. That also means, it can send me right back to the place that has the potential to bring me the most sadness.
Because no matter how many times I get my hopes up, or how different things seem this time, they never are.
Because I cant make you change. I can't make you do the work. I can't make you love me the way that I do you.
Because, you can't make anyone change. You can't make anyone do they work. They have to do it on their own.
You have to do it on your own.
Maybe you will, maybe you won't, but either way, I need to beat this addiction. I need to get past you. I need to walk away if I ever have a chance at saving myself.
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