At the end of the day all we have is memories

A letter to the guy who broke my heart i forgive you

Dear Austin,

I've come a long way since the day you left. I'm not the same person I was that day. I'm not the same person I was when I was totally and completely absorbed in our toxic relationship.

I've come really far. I've come really far since the day you left me crying in my bed as you became very distant

It didn't make sense to me. Part of it still doesn't. But I've come a long way since that day. I've made sense of things in my own way, even if ill never be able to understand them from your head.
YOU WEREN'T READY
You weren't ready to fight for me. We had issues that were going to work on.  We had problems that were created from lack of trust and insecurities. We had a lot to work on. We needed to compromise. We needed to fight. We needed to make an effort. I have accepted that you weren't ready to do this. You weren't ready to fight for a relationship. You weren't ready to fix the things that you broke. It was easier for you to walk away in hopes of finding something that would be simple. You had hopes of finding easy. You weren't ready for the passionate kind of fight that every day brought for us. And that's okay.
I should never have tried to persuade you
I sat there crying in your car  begging for you to give me a chance. I sat there listing out all of the reasons that I loved you and why those were reason enough that you should stay. I never should have done that. I never needed to.  You NEVER have to convince someone to be with you. You should never have to persuade them. If someone wants to be with you, they will be. If someone wants to fight for you, they will.
I may never understand why you did it. I may never understand the way your feelings seemed to flip almost instantly. I may never understand the way you promised me you'd never hurt me, promised me you wouldn't let me down again, promised me that it was me and you against the world... and then left. It was like one day everything changed. Your mind was made up and there was nothing I could do to change it. I have accepted that this is something I may never understand. I'm not even sure if you understand it.
I loved you with everything in me. I was able to look past your flaws, look past the person everyone warned me you'd become and look past all of the ways you hurt me. There was something about you I couldn't get enough of. No matter what you put me through, I still fought for you.. every single day.
I don't regret it.
People ask me all of the time if I regret all of the chances I gave you. It took me awhile to figure out how to answer this. It took a lot of running all of the memories through my head. But no, I don't regret it. I don't regret loving you. I don't regret letting someone in enough to hurt me.  I don't regret any of it. This whole experience has shaped me into the person I am growing to be.

Take Care,

The girl you left broken