I walked down into the cafeteria, with the same shocked expression on my face. I can't believe Cat cuts herself. But why? She doesn't even look like the type. No wonder why she's always in that damn bathroom, whining and whatever. I sighed making my way to the line. Choices of food were pizza, sanwiches, chilli, and meatloaf. I got cheese pizza with french fries and something to drink. I didn't bother looking for Bahja because she was with other people. I sat across from Cat at the table. She slowly looked up at me and smiled, waving her hand.
"Hey Zonni! Can I call you that?" Cat asked raising an eyebrow.
"Yeah sure..."
"Is everything okay?"
I nodded before biting into my slice of pizza. Everything wasn't okay though. I've only known her for two days but I have a kind heart and I do care. I don't even feel comfortable asking her about why she cuts. It's none of my business. Maybe Cat will come out one day and tell me.
"That boy is cute"
"Who?" I asked curiously.
She pointed her finger across the room and my eyes landed on that Zoey kid. He was sitting with two other boys, knocking on the table making beats. He wasn't my type at all so I didn't even bother taking another look at him. My eyes traveled over to the other two boys. One had long dreads while the other was caramel with a short cut. Both of them looked familiar.
"Aye Shad spit some!" one of the boys yelled. Who? I squinted my eyes and immediately became enraged. This can't be happening. The person responsible for everything that has corrupted my mind and soul, is sitting five feet away from me. Eleven whole years since I actually seen his face. I will forever hold a grudge towards him. Honestly I just want to stab him with this plastic fork.
It took all of me to not get up but I had to let all of this anger go. I've been holding everything in and I'm tired. I got up from my seat then made my way over to their table. I slid his tray on the floor causing the entire cafeteria to look at us. Shad looked at me with confusion before standing up as well.
"Hey Zonnique-"
"Don't greet me you dirty son a bitch!" I yelled pointing my finger in his face.
"What's your problem?!" he shouted moving my hand away. I know damn well he didn't touch me.
"You are my problem Shad! You are the reason I'm like this. It's all because of you.. You took my innocence away and toyed with my heart! You hurt me in ways I can't even explain!"
"It was the past! Why can't you just move on? damn. I didn't mean to hurt you Zonnique-"
"Yes you did, you wanted to make me suffer. You broke me down just like that Shad. Why?" I asked softly with tears forming in my eyes.
"Can we talk about this in private?"
I hesitantly nodded before walking out the cafeteria. He took awhile but he followed me upstairs to the lounge. I had this funny feeling in ny stomach but I ignored it. It was sorta like deja-vu or something. Shad sat on the couch across from me, looking emotionless. He had no sign of sympathy on his face which upsets me even more. I starred down in my lap twiddling with my thumbs. I heard him shut the door and lock it. That's when my heart began pumping faster.
"I only did all those things to you because I didn't wanna see you with that guy"
"Chris?"
"Yeah that faggot."
"Don't call him that Shad! He actually loved me unlike you" I scoffed glaring at him.
His lips formed into a smirk, "Loved? Oh so he dumped you huh?"
