Chris
Why is this shit happening to me? I can't even believe this right now. First Zonnique doesn't remember me then she breaks up with me. I'm more than hurt, I'm furious. I risked my life just to be with her and now i'm the one whose empty handed. I love Zonnique more than life itself. I'd do anything for her, literally but I don't think I can let her go. She's slowly drifting away and I can't do anything about. Obviously she doesn't love me. That night after the kickback was over, we both we're in the twins room changing their diapers. She had Joella while I had Jordan. I finished changing him then grabbed his bottle from the table. I began to feed him while Zonnique struggled to wipe Joella. She continued squirming around, getting upset.
"Ella..." she groaned.
"Put the pacifier in her mouth" I told her.
Zonnique paused and grabbed the pink one, putting it in her mouth. She stopped crying and allowed her mother to change. After feeding them we laid them back in the cribs and left out the room.
"Nique I think you should go check on Ariana"
"Who?'
"Your daughter"
"Oh yeah.. uh okay" she replied blandly before heading down to her room.
I went to my room and shut the door before flopping on the bed. I don't even know what to do right now. My mind isn't focussed on my career. I keep thinking about Zonnique and its bothering me. She's distancing herself and I don't believe I have a chance with her. Like earlier, I saw the way she looked at Ray or whatever. It fucked me up bad but I decided not to say nothing. Suddenly my phone rang and surprisingly it was Meghan. I answered it anyways, since she did visit me at the hospital a few times.
"Hey Chris" she greeted.
"What's up?"
"Nothing much, I just wanted to see how you were doing and congrats on your babies"
"I'm fine and thanks. How are you?" I asked boredly.
"I'm great just unpacking all of this stuff"
"You moved?"
"Yeah yesterday..."
"Oh okay"
"I'll just see you around, if you didn't want to talk to me you could've said that Christopher-"
"I'm sorry okay? I'm going through a lot right now.." I sighed.
She remained quiet and finally said something. "Well if you need a friend, I'm always here"
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Zonnique
I put breakfast on plates of Ariana and myself then sat at the table. Chris left in the middle of the night to god knows where so whatever. He didn't answer the phone when I called either. I shrugged it off and began eating my food. I prepared homemade cinnamon waffles, bacon, and eggs. As we finished up, the front door opened and I knew it was Chris. He walked into the kitchen with pep in his step and happiness evident on his face. I merely raised my brow while stabbing my food.
"Where'd you go?" I asked.
"What?"
"Chris where were you?"
"I went to a friend's house" he answered lowly while pouring himself a glass of orange juice.
I continued to stare at him until I finally realized. I know exactly what he did last night and honestly I am not happy about it. If he claims to love me so much; why did he sneak out and sleep with someone. I huffed in frustration then slammed my plate in the sink. I definitely need to get out of this house. Everyone is driving me crazy in here. I went into my bedroom and dug in the drawer. got dressed then brushed my hair into a bun. As I was finishing up, Ariana walked inside then sat on my bed.
