Cat.
I paced back and forth in our room, mumbling to myself. How am I going to tell Zonnique? She'll probably think I'm some crazy stalker type or something. When I first met her I instantly was drawed to her. Everything about her is just perfect. Her hair, her eyes, her baby face, and her b- nevermind. For awhile now I've been confused about my sexuality. I like boys but I'm also attracted to Zonnique, not any other girl. It's just really confusing right now. I want to tell her how I feel but the fear of rejection. She already told me she's deeply in love with some guy so there's no use. I laid in my bunk drawing some pictures, listening to the radio. Beyonce's song mine featuring Drake played. I always loved that song for some reason.
"Lets stop holding back on this and lets get carried away. Stop making a big deal outta little things..." I sang shading in the drawing.
Ten minutes later the door opened. Surprisingly it was Zonnique, she's been gone for like two hours. She stumbled in giggling hysterically. Her lipstick was smudged and her dress looked twisted. A guy walked in afterwards, and they both hurried into the bathroom. That must be Chris or Christian, whatever. I rolled my eyes before shutting off the radio and closing my notebook.
Zonnique walked back out in something more comfortable, holding the guy's hand.
"Cat this is uh Chris, my good friend" she said nudging his arm.
"Her boyfriend-"
"Shut up!" she giggled.
"Hey.." I greeted boredly, sitting indian style on my bed. The Chris Brown was in our room. She never told me this and I can see why.
"So we're going to go downstairs, everyone is outside for the kickback. You're coming?"
I shook my head no. "I'm gonna chill here.."
"Okay well I'll see you later!" Zonnique sighed before hugging me once again. This time even more tighter. The feel of her breast against mine caused me to pull away quickly. I hate the fact that I like her, it's weird. It makes me not want to stay in this room. Growing up, my mother always told me homosexuals were related with the devil or something. I'm just going to distance myself from Zonnique, it's for the best.
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Zonnique
Cat didn't want to go to the kickback which was weird. Alot of shit she's doing is weird but I'm just gonna ignore it. I had more things on my mind. I still hadn't told Chris about Shad or any of the other boys. He'd literally kill someone and I don need that on my conscious right now. I walked outside hand in hand with him, looking around. Everyone had their friends and family here which was cool. It was actually packed. Some people greeted Chris, fangiriling or whatever. He was used to all the attention so it didn't bother him. We laid in the hammock nearby the trees, far away from the crowd. It felt amazing to just be away from everything. It was just him and I; all I've been asking for.
"Your friend seems... awkward as fuck" Chris blurted obnoxiously.
"Don't be a dick Christopher. She's different" I reassured with a small smile. Though Cat was acting strange, she's my friend.
"I'm just saying and I don't think homegirl like me either. You heard the way she said it, hey" he mimicked her then chuckled. I laughed playing with his hair. He's so childish sometimes.
"Cat is going through some things bab.. I mean-"
"You called me baby" he smirked.
I blushed before discreetly rolling my eyes. Hell, he'll always be my baby whether we're together or not. We're not official yet. I want to wait until I'm out of here and fully recovered.
"What you looking at?" I asked watching Chris. He had his eyes focussed on something well someone in particular. I followed his stare and spotted Shad.
"This nigga..."
"Don't worry about him-"
"Fuck you mean? He lucky all these old people here, I'd beat his ass right now" Chris said with all seriousness in his voice. "Has he said anything to you Zonnique?"
I paused for two minutes and shook my head no. I didn't want to cause another altercation between them two. Then again I felt bae about lying to him again. Chris starred me down and let out a deep sigh. "I know when you're lying Nique"
"I'm not lying!" I groaned becoming agitated.
"Yeah you are, just tell me before I go ask him myself"
He's so over protective sometimes, and I don't have no problem with that but gosh. "I'd rather not bring it back up Christopher. Can we not worry about Shad?"
"I'd rather you tell me what happened" he replied sarcastically.
"Seriously drop it"
"Seriously tell me"
"Chris stop copying me!" I sighed crossing my arms. In a situation like this, Justine told me to always be honest; that's the best policy. But it has a negative outcome most of the time.
A tear slid down my face and I quickly wiped it away. "If I tell you, will you promise to not get mad?"
"I can't promise that Zonnique but I'll try my hardest.." Chris sighed, rubbing under my eyes with both thumbs.
Suddenly a huge lump formed in my throat. I felt the erge to puke but I didn't. I know I'd have to continue my vow to grow up. That means, letting this weight off my shoulders.
"When I first got here.. I met this guy Zoey and he seemed a bit sketchy but I didn't pay it no mind. Then days later I noticed Shad was here so I approached him. I yelled at him about hurting me in the past and all that," I said and Chris continued to listen, "he said he wanted to talk in private so we went upstairs. Me being gullible, I didn't even realize what he was up to. He started bashing me and saying all this rude shit. Then I tried to leave but he got aggressive and pinned me against the all. Basically he.. he.."
"He what Zonnique?" Chris gritted through his teeth angrily.
I began crying hysterically clutching onto him. I hid my face in his chest and sniffled as he stroked my hair. At this point, I didn't have to tell him what happened; it was pretty obvious now.
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Part one.
I didn't feel like writing anymore but whatever. Also, Chris and Zonnique didn't have sex lol. Just wanted to throw that out there!
Thanks for reading ;* ♡
