Whispers of the Sky (Hunter X Hunter)

Envy X Of The X Weak (Yllina's PoV)

Envy is born from the weakness of one's heart
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"Killua, we have to look for Gon!" I demanded but my pleas went to deaf ears as Killua continued to relax amongst the applicants already huddled close to Satotz.

It was upsetting how heartless Killua could be at the given situation. The wind told me alone that Gon ran off to help Rhode and the others. As much as I am grateful at Gon for doing so- a part in me still wished he didn't leave and go off to possibly get himself killed.

Rhode left Killua and Gon with me for a reason, that being the fact that we were incapable of standing up to Hisoka at our current disposition. I'm sure Rhode and Kurapika aren't any different from us but from how I've seen Rhode's training back in Soevenia, there's at least a small chance she may be able to pull off rescuing Leorio.

Rhode's luck in battle has never failed her and I'm praying that it never does.

"That woman... She's killed before, hasn't she?" Killua finally spoke up causing me to grip my waist cape in agitation at the question.

"Then she'll be fine." He added to which I returned his aloof gaze with my own panicked ones. The memory of a blood-stained Rhode always haunts me in my dreams, her magenta eyes devoid of any mercy as she deftly slices her opponents down like paper.

For Killua to assume that she would be fine just because she had killed before made me angry at both him and myself. Angry at him for saying such a thing and angry at myself because it was out of loyalty to our family that got her into such a situation in the first place.

I understand that the Hunters Exam isn't a walk in the park... Sooner or later the people remaining in this exam would be forced to kill just to earn a spot to become a hunter. Both Rhode and I were already aware of the repercussions and yet... I still couldn't bring myself to stomach it.

"Even so... I knew we would have to face it sooner or later but even so!" I nearly screamed earning me a few gazes but I ignored them. Turning to Killua who seemed surprised by my outburst, I clenched my hands tightly to try and control the tears trying to escape.

"I don't want her to carry this burden alone! There's a reason why I threw it all away... I just wanted her to be free from this chain she tied herself in." I clenched my teeth in frustration before pointing at Killua in a threatening manner.

"Just because she can kill does not give her permission to take a life. She's done with that kind of thing and I'm not about to make her walk back into it again. If you have a shred of humanity there inside of you then you will help me find Gon, otherwise, we're no longer friends!" I shouted before turning away from him to look for Gon, Rhode and the others.

It's obvious that my threats towards him were weak- we weren't even friends to begin with so there was no point for him to help me. But Rhode and Kurapika risked their lives with the notion that at the very least, us three wouldn't be caught in the crossfire.

I should've known people like Gon have a one-track mind when it came to serious issues like this. Does he honestly think he could be of help? Rhode knew the odds were against us that's why she made such a sacrificial act.

The thought alone makes me clench my hands tighter into a fist, my eyes doing its best to rapidly blink to avoid the tears from showing as I maneuvered may way to the forest.