5 Seconds Of Summer Preferences

Depression

Depression

[TRIGGER WARNING: OKAY SO CLEARLY THIS PREFERENCE IS DEPRESSING AND INVOLVES DEPRESSION. PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOUR ARE SENSITIVE TO THIS, I DON'T MEAN TO OFFEND ANYONE AND PLEASE DON'T GET ANY IDEAS.] AND I AM SORRY IF LUKE'S IS LONGER.

Ashton:
You roll out of bed when you find out Ashton had already gotten up. You stood up straight, looking around and feeling anxious that Ashton wasn't by your side. You trudge downstairs to the kitchen, feeling relieved when you spot Ashton in the kitchen. "How are you feeling?" Ashton asks, sliding over your container of anti depressants and kissing your forehead. "Crappy" You admit, flicking the 'Saturday' cap up. You frown when you noticed that there was a skittle with each one of your anti depressants. "what's this?" You ask and Ashton smiles. "Other than you, skittles make me happy, I want you to feel happy" Ashton smiles.

Michael:
You flinch, picking up your phone and dialling your best friends number. "Michael?.. I need you.." You begin to sob to your best friend. "Hold on, I'll be right there" He replies, he was about to hang up but you stopped him. "Wait, Michael?" You ask, tears falling down your face. "Yeah?" Michael asks, his voice small. "Can you stay on the phone?" You ask. "Of course I can" He breathes and you force a smile.
When Michael arrives, you both hang up. You race to the door, greeting your best friend with a bone crushing hug. "Help me.. Please" You sob into Michael's shirt. Michael was trying to hold back his tears, he hated seeing his best friend like this.

Luke:
"Hello?" Luke's voice asks as he picks up the phone, his voice was raspy because you most likely woke him up. "Luke, I just called to say goodbye. Forever. I love you. I love you so damn much, but sometimes.. you just have to let go. Thank you for being there. I love you" Your voice cracks. "No! Y/N! Wha-" Luke's voice panics but you end the call, sliding down the bathroom wall. The tears were glowing down your face, You screw your eyes shut, that was the last time you'd hear his voice.
You stand up, shakily rummaging through the medicine cabinet. You listen to the harsh voices in your head as you come across a bottle of newly bought capsules. You struggle to get the lid open, but you got it in the end. You fill your hand with the pills, some falling to the floor. "Goodbye Luke.. Thank you for teaching me how to love" You say, looking at the pills in your hand. Just at that moment, the door opened and the pills were knocked out of your hands. Luke enveloped you in a hug while you screamed how you wanted to die. "I'm not letting you go that easily" He whispers to you.

Calum:
"Why did you do it?" A tear slips out of Calum's eye as he holds your wrists out, looking over the old and recent cuts and scratches.
"Because they told me to.." You mutter.
"What?" Calum asks but quickly catches on.
You had depression. You had it for a while. 3 years to be exact, Right after your sister lost her fight with Leukaemia.
"Don't listen to them.. They don't know nothing" Calum tells you.
"It's hard to give up something so addictive" You sigh. "I know, but I don't want you going anywhere" Calum whispers, pressing a kiss to your cheek.

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A|N

I cried a lot writing this.
Nuff said.
And i'm sorry, I got a little carried away with Luke's.