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•{paroxysm}•
ˈparəksɪz(ə)m/
noun
1. a sudden attack or outburst of a particular emotion or activity.
Ty<3: Hey Josh. Just checking in to make sure you're okay. You, uh, kinda left me hanging at school today, but it's okay, no worries. And you're still on for seeing my parents tonight, right? x
"Speak of the devil" Cas smirked as he leaned closer to Josh to take a peak at the message that had caused his trouser pocket to vibrate.
Josh didn't mind if he saw the message. It wasn't like he was trying to hide anything from anyone. He could read the whole conversation and Josh wouldn't care. He trusted Cas not to say anything to anyone. They both had to much dirt on each other to be able to do that.
Joshie<3: Hey Tyler. I'm really sorry about leaving you at school today. Please forgive me. I overslept. As for your parents i'm still coming x
As much as Josh wanted to whine and protest, he couldn't deny the one thing Tyler wanted. It was selfish of him. And he understood that. He would do anything to make Tyler happy. And if this was going to make that bright smile return to Tyler's face then Josh would have no regrets.
Ty<3: Really?! Yay! I thought you were just gonna ignore me or something. But you didn't, i'm glad ^-^ x
Joshie<3: Why would I ignore you? You're too precious to me x
Ty<3: Awwww, you're really precious to me too :3 x
At the sound of gagging Josh lifted his love-heavy-head and turned it towards the source of the revolting noise.
"Oh no, don't mind me. Carry on."
Joshie<3: Hey, do you mind if we move the dinner a little later? My father won't be home for a little while x
Ty<3: Oh, that's completely fine, don't worry about it, I miss you though :( x
Josh sighed. He wish Tyler wouldn't be so nice it makes these things harder.
Josh knew that he was doing everything in his power to get out of this god damn meal. He didn't want to go. Should he really feel forced to? Should a relationship feel this way? Should he feel that he has too go, and not because he wants too? It shouldn't feel that way, right?
In Josh's eyes 'Definitely not'.
If Cas was happy with Dean that would mean he always wants to see him, right?
So isn't that how he should feel about Tyler?
The truth is Josh had been into Tyler for a while now, his mind had been blurred by the new feelings he'd been producing. But, was this really what he wanted? He was the one to start this whole ordeal in the first place right? Well, he guessed it was kinda both of their faults.
What if his father was right? I mean, what's saying he could trust Tyler 100%. But then again, what's not.
In a relationship don't both contributors have to feel the same way about each other? If the relationship was failing they'd to everything in their power to get it up and running again. But did Josh feel that way? Sure, he thought Tyler was the best thing in the entire world, so, what was stopping him from taking their relationship to the next level?
He was so utterly and completely lost. Maybe it was because he was scared, he'd never admit it. But deep down, he knew he was terrified. He was terrified of the rumours surrounding Tyler. He was terrified of the things surrounding Tyler. He was even terrified of Tyler himself. Who knows what sort of things he was capable of. But then again, who knew what most people were capable of these days. Tyler was the most innocent person and Josh knew that. He wouldn't harm a fly.
Josh pulled himself from the seat and told Cas to lock up on his way out as he began to get ready for the meal. The faster he goes, the faster he can get it over with.
Joshie<3: You know what? No. I'm coming over. My dad can meet me there. x
Ty<3: Really?! Josh, you're honestly the best! x
Josh smiled. He really did feel something for Tyler, he didn't know what it was, or what to call it. But he knew that there were probably words to describe it in ancient dictionaries. But if he didn't want to waste all the effort and hard work it took to make this relationship work, he'd have to step out of his comfort zone.
Joshie<3: I'd do anything for you x
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words: 829. smol update.
edited. ish.
WOW. it feels like i haven't updated in so long, i swear all my A/N's are like this now, but i am truly sorry. i've been lacking inspiration. Anyway, if i made any mistakes pls lemmie know, ty. x
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