Maximum Overload [BoyxBoy]

Overload 6-Decisions

             This is a short chapter, and I'm not a big fan of it myself. It's super late so I'm sorry if there are a ton of mistakes. Please comment with any thoughts you have, I'd love to hear from you!

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Kitty <3

   Overload 6-Decisions

                I kissed Kale like that for several minutes and I was incredibly disappointed when he pulled away. I stared at him for what seemed like ages before I noticed that he had been trying to get my attention. “Huh?” I muttered through my dazed state. God he was a good kisser! What was I thinking? “Is being gay contagious?” It wasn’t until after I saw the look on Kale’s face that I realized that I had said that out loud. He was staring at me with his eyebrows raised.

                “What?”

                “I um, didn’t really mean to say that. But I don’t know what to think about all of this.”

                “All of what?”

                “You know...us.” I said gesturing between us. I took note that he was still standing incredible close to me as the smell of his refreshing cologne tickled my nose.

                “What are we?” he asked. God, he knew what I was talking about yet he had to go and try and make me define it. “Look, if you can come up with a definition for us, then you are one step closer to figuring this out.”

                “I-I don’t know.” I stuttered as I slowly backed away from him. “Kale, I just don’t know.” I whispered before I bolted from the room. I ran into my room, sliding my back down the closed door. I ran my hands through my hair as I tried to think. What was happening to me? I’m the straight high school quarterback. Kale and I could have any girl we want, and he’s gay. Honestly I’m not sure if I want them anymore either. I pounded my head against the back of my door in frustration. How could this be so complicated? Kale made it look so easy, being gay and all.

                My phone vibrated in my pocket and Kale’s name showed up on the illuminated screen.

                -You can’t run from your problems forever. Keep in mind that I do know where you live, Maximum.

                When did he get so confident? I bet that he thought he was being cute, and so did I….Shit, thoughts like that were the kind that I was currently trying to avoid. That night I slept like that, with my back pressed against the door.

               

“Good morning.” Kale grumbled sleepily as he came down the stairs. I had gotten an early start at cleaning up after the party. Last night I had barely slept, as it turned out that sleeping up against a door wasn’t all that comfortable. I ignored him and continued picking up trash from around the living room.

                He began following me around picking up garbage, just as he had done the week before. We finished in silence and then we sat down to breakfast. “Can you pass me the sugar?” Kale asked. Silently I did as he asked. “Are you going to ignore me forever?” I shrugged my shoulders in response. “Max, how is running from this helping anyone?” Again I just shrugged looking down at my bowl of Frosted Flakes.

                I jerked my head up to look at Kale and then I looked down at his hand which now held mine. I stared at our hands interlocked but I didn’t pull mine back. It almost felt nice and it wasn’t all that different than holding hands with a girl. “I thought that would get your attention,” he chuckled. “But now Max you have a decision to make.”

                “I-I don’t know what to say.”

                “You have to decide if you want to see where this can go, where we can go, or if you are content with where you are at.”

                “I-I don’t know if I’m gay or not.”

                “You don’t have to, you just have to decide if it matters to you enough to try and figure it out.” He let go of my hand and got up from the counter. After he rinsed out his cereal bowl he walked out the sliding glass doors and stood next to the pool. I stared after him, thinking about what he had said. I could just let things go back to normal I had no doubt that Maya made me happy. But when I thought more carefully about it I did have other doubts. When I kissed her again would I think of Kale? If we got married and had kids would I still wonder what it would have been like to be with him even after all those years? Would I regret not giving it a chance? Maybe I wouldn’t but there was a significant chance that I might, and I guess that was enough for me.  

                When I got up it wasn’t my mind that led me out the back door, it was my heart. I grabbed Kale by the hand and spun him around to face me. At the same time I pressed my lips to his with a fierce passion that I had never given anyone else. Kale let me have dominance as he kissed me back. A burning sensation coursed through my veins and it all felt so….right. I pulled back pressing my forehead against his with the fingers of my right hand still laced through his. His body felt so good that close to mine and it felt like we fit together. Even our hands were sized just right for each other’s.

 “Is it safe to assume that you’ve made a decision?” He asked out of breath.

“That would be a safe assumption,” I laughed nervously. He rolled something around in his mouth with his tongue and the white glint just barely caught my eye. “Is that a breath mint?” I asked and a smile spread across his face. “You knew that I would choose you?” I asked as understanding dawned on me. Had I just been played?

                “I was hoping,” he let that cocky tone slip into his voice.

                “You cocky bastard!” I yelled, as affectionately as humanly possible, throwing him into the pool. Yeah I still had a lot of decisions to make, and I’m scared as hell. But I just can’t imagine living life without knowing what would have happened. If I’m gay, then I need to know as soon as possible. But how does a guy tell the girl that he loves, that he has feelings for a guy?