Don't Leave Me

Chapter twenty four

Marzia pov

I can't believe and had an anxiety attack again. I really don't want to go back to taking those pills. I hated it so much. Felix said that my black out only lasted about 20 mins but it really felt like a couple of seconds.

M-"Felix?"

F-"Yeah?"

M-"Thanks for sticking around with me."

F-"Marzia you know I'm always there for you." He smiles and I smile back at him. We stare at each other for a while. I get lost in his ocean blue eyes and I can see him getting closer and closer. Just as he was about to close the gap between us...

~bell ring~

'Are you kidding me I liked where that was going. Wait what? Do...I have feelings fo-...no. No I don't. I have a crush on Julien. Right?'

F-"Uh...guess we gotta go to first block." he laughs nervously.

M-"Uh yeah...see you later."

We go are separate ways and the hallways start filling with students. I go to my first block which is English. Man I hope the teacher is nice. My past English teachers have been rude. Hopefully I know someone in this class too. I walk into the class and I see a sit that's open all the way in the back. 'Yes! Jackpot!' I love sitting at the back of the class cuz most of the time the teacher doesn't really notice me and they don't call on me to read or answer questions. I sit down and I get my phone out and put my earbuds in. After about a minute into the song someone taps my shoulder.

"Hey is anyone sitting here?"

M-"uh...nope. It's open. Wait. Julien? You're in this class."

J-"Yup!"

'Oh no. He's gonna see that I have anxiety.'

J-"Oh uh are you okay?"

M-"yeah I'm fine. Why?"

J-"I heard you fainted. And I saw you friend carrying you to the nurse."

'Awe man he already knows.'

M-"Oh. Yeah I fainted." I put my head down.

J-"Why? And how?"

M-"I guess just the thought of starting junior year." I laugh nervously. I don't want him to know because I don't want him to be worrying about everything I do. That's how Felix reacted. That's why he never leaves my side and is always scared if I go out alone. Even our friends Diazo, Mary, and Ken worry about me too much.

J-"Well it shouldn't be too bad. Hey just think about this, one more year and we're out of this prison."

He chuckles and I giggle. He looks at me and smiles. Now at this moment I would be blushing and feeling butterflies but nothing. I didn't blush nor did I have butterflies in my stomach. I just smiled back. 'What is going on. Do I not have feeling for Julien?' The class officially starts and it just the teacher mostly talking about the rules of the class which there weren't many rules. He said 'since we're juniors we should know better'. Throughout the class Julien kept poking me and trying to get my attention. I would look at him a few times and he would just pretend that he didn't do anything. The bell rang and I had Math next.

J-"Hey uh wanna sit next to me during lunch?"

M-"Um I'm sitting with Felix and Diazo and maybe Ken and Mary if they don't skip and go out to eat."

J-"oh." He puts his head down.

M-"But you can sit with us?"

J-"Okay." He looks up and smiles.

M-"well gotta go bye Julien." I wave goodbye and he comes towards me and gives me a hug. "Uh what was that for?"

J-"well we are friends right? I hug most of my friends."

M-"oh. Anyway uh...bye." 'That was really weird. Wait a minute. Oh no he's having feelings for me. Crap! I don't even like him that much anymore. I think. Ugh Felix really missed up my head for trying to kiss me.' I walk into my math class and just to my luck there was Felix.

F-"Hey Marzia!" He waves. I wave back nervously and I feel like jumping out the window. "Come on there's a seat open next to me."

I had no other choice but to sit there. The rest of block was basically the same as English. Just going over the rules but Felix just kept trying to talk about what almost happened this morning.

M-"Look Felix let's just forget that ever happened ok?" He looks at me straight into my eyes and I could see he really wanted to talk about it.

F-*sighs*  "ok. Let's forget about it." But ever since I said that that was all I thought about. I couldn't get if off my head no matter how hard I tried. I tried listening to music but I still thought about it. Finally the bell rings for lunch. Felix walks out the class right away. 'Is he mad? Why?' I tried stopping him.

M-"Felix. Felix! FELIX?!" But no use. He wouldn't stop. He went straight to the men's bathroom. "Felix what's wrong? Why won't you talk to me? FELIX?!" He opens the door.

F-"What Marzia."

M-"Are you seriously mad because I won't talk about the kiss." His face turns red.

F-"No...I'm forgetting about it...like you said. Let's just go to lunc-"

J-"Hey Marzia. I've been looking for you. I thought you would be at the caf- oh is this a bad time?"

M-"Uh..."

F-"No. we were just about to go to the cafeteria."

J-"oh ok." Felix walks away. "Is everything okay with you guys?"

M-"Oh yeah. Felix just gets grumpy when he's hungry." I laugh nervously.

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Sorry I haven't update in a little while. It's "SOL season" (if you don't know what an SOL is it's basically an exam) so I might not be uploading a lot this month or next month. Ok bai:)